.smiles and lies.

[deathbyaltoids]

i just finished the first season of entourage, which is quickly growing to be one of my favorite shows. i had seen a couple episodes before i had asked for it on DVD, but now i see what everyone has been talking about. it's kind of funny though, watching it. it's almost like it's a little too close to home. these clubs they visit, the kind of life they lead.

it reminds me of the times that i spend with 'them.' expensive drinks and saying goodbye to "special friends." am i just another number? another person that'll get mad if you don't call when you're in town? i do so much for them and get nothing but lies in return.

there was something that was said, something about being "addicted" to them. feeling good when they're around, and having withdrawals when they leave. hah. anyone have the yellowcard patch? are they my friends or foes? good or bad?

i came down from cleaning today, and it was just me and my brothers home. we ordered pizza, and i was busy making a CD upstairs, and when i came down they had finished eating. but there was a place set for me with a plate and a cold coke. i smiled. it was so thoughtful that they thought of me. i love my family as friends, and my friends as family.

i just wish everyone could be so thoughtful. these are the things that make me feel genuinely good.