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hm long time sense i have typed in this ... it feels kind of weard i guess the resion why i havent been typin in it is because i get tired of bitchin about my life but now i really need to i am really upset b/c my g/f wants to go to a club and she directly told me not to go and told me that she was going to go dance with other guys and its not that i dont want to trust her it just.... i know she dosint make good disishions and i am just really afrade that she is going to evd up doing somthin and hurting me i guess the resion why i feel like this could be b/c of my new meds but i still dont know about it it just seems to obviose that somthin bad is going to happin and its not like any of my friends help make me feel beter b/c i inderectly asked all of them and they were all ethere like why if she likes you would she want to dance with anther guy and the others where like it sonds like something bad is going to happin idk its not like i can do anything it just my hart geting stuck in the cross fires again and i am shure it will end up being myfalt again some how