VIKTOR
My partner of 8 years broke up with me when I came to surprise him on his birthday. The distance got to him and he developed feelings for someone else. I have spent these past few days fighting for him, fighting for the love I know we still have. He admits he loves me, but his infatuation with this other guy is too strong to ignore. There have been lots of tears, I have broken again and again and unlike ever before. My love for Viktor is not that of a crush, passing love, but soul mate and to lose that other piece of myself is unimaginable. He is still very confused, I can tell. I have been sharing my love with him in all forms and had to let him go back to the other guy last night. There has not been a physical cheat, this is all emotional for him, which is the worst and thus, I cannot do much except continue to show my love.
I will not be moving to New Orleans and have decided to leave San Francisco and return to Los Angeles. I need to be closer to him, even though he is choosing this other person over me, I cannot be out of sight and out of mind. I am dedicated to fighting for our love because it is magic. The final step in this love is knowing that I MUST set him free. I MUST let him go and explore this infatuation so that he can return to me because he loves me and not imprisoned by me.
I am broken, I am breaking, I am not as strong as people are saying, but I am not giving up because Love is all I believe in.
Viktor's family and friends hate this other guy and keep telling him he is making a huge mistake by leaving me, but he must learn this on his own, no one can decide for his heart.
I know he loves me, he tells me he does and always will, he just needs to face this lust for something different, something that filled the void in my absence. He has only known this guy for a month so I know that this 'love' cannot be as strong as the 8 years we have shared one another's hearts.
He is my soul mate and I know we shall reunite in the end and this journey and fight for love will be the most difficult thing I ever go through. I have thrown away jealousy, pride, impatience, and all other usual reactions for the love that is within my heart.
If I thought he did not love me still, I would not fight, but I know he does and that we are meant to be together.
I am hurting and know that by living in Los Angeles, I shall hurt more being near him, but I cannot run away, I cannot be distant because that is what led to this. I must also show him that HE is more important than a city. He is my home, my one true love, and that is worth every sacrifice, in the end.
FIGHTING
BLEEDING
IN LOVE WITH MY VIKTOR, ALWAYS
I will not be moving to New Orleans and have decided to leave San Francisco and return to Los Angeles. I need to be closer to him, even though he is choosing this other person over me, I cannot be out of sight and out of mind. I am dedicated to fighting for our love because it is magic. The final step in this love is knowing that I MUST set him free. I MUST let him go and explore this infatuation so that he can return to me because he loves me and not imprisoned by me.
I am broken, I am breaking, I am not as strong as people are saying, but I am not giving up because Love is all I believe in.
Viktor's family and friends hate this other guy and keep telling him he is making a huge mistake by leaving me, but he must learn this on his own, no one can decide for his heart.
I know he loves me, he tells me he does and always will, he just needs to face this lust for something different, something that filled the void in my absence. He has only known this guy for a month so I know that this 'love' cannot be as strong as the 8 years we have shared one another's hearts.
He is my soul mate and I know we shall reunite in the end and this journey and fight for love will be the most difficult thing I ever go through. I have thrown away jealousy, pride, impatience, and all other usual reactions for the love that is within my heart.
If I thought he did not love me still, I would not fight, but I know he does and that we are meant to be together.
I am hurting and know that by living in Los Angeles, I shall hurt more being near him, but I cannot run away, I cannot be distant because that is what led to this. I must also show him that HE is more important than a city. He is my home, my one true love, and that is worth every sacrifice, in the end.
FIGHTING
BLEEDING
IN LOVE WITH MY VIKTOR, ALWAYS