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AHHH!!! work is so boring... but on the bright side, i only have an hour left... i think when i get out of here, im gonna go work on some papers... or ill work on my self portrait... havent decided yet.
i tried to end it... i just couldnt let go of the possibility that things might change and be alright in the end... i dont know why i stayed... i dont know if its worth it. i just cant lose him for good i guess... since i know there isnt a possibility of us being friends if i did end it, i dont want to let go until im positive i have to. im only going to take so much more though. i dont think i can stand another fight like we have been having... ive used up enough tears and ive lost my voice too many times trying to get him to hear me over his own yelling... next time im gonna just have to suck it up and see that nothing is going to change, and im better off i guess... hopefully ot wont come to that. im not good at letting people go.
well i guess i need to get back to working... (ha! yeah right, i never do anything at work) but whatever, talk to you all later!!
Erica
i tried to end it... i just couldnt let go of the possibility that things might change and be alright in the end... i dont know why i stayed... i dont know if its worth it. i just cant lose him for good i guess... since i know there isnt a possibility of us being friends if i did end it, i dont want to let go until im positive i have to. im only going to take so much more though. i dont think i can stand another fight like we have been having... ive used up enough tears and ive lost my voice too many times trying to get him to hear me over his own yelling... next time im gonna just have to suck it up and see that nothing is going to change, and im better off i guess... hopefully ot wont come to that. im not good at letting people go.
well i guess i need to get back to working... (ha! yeah right, i never do anything at work) but whatever, talk to you all later!!
Erica