please help me if you can before i do something bad...
What the point to life if the people you love and care about barly acknolgae you and shit and cut you down? My brother never does anything but cut me down and call me a stupid little kid and that nothing I do is of mine own accord ( that all the stuff i do like art and music ) is all copied from other people and that nothing in my head, like my own oppions, arnt my own. How do you deal with someone like that? Whats the point to life if that someone thats doing this to you is the person that you look up to and that you idolize? If any of you have any advice please tell me beacuse I'm at my last straw here and i need to do something that will help take the pain away with out hurting myself. I have good friends and other family but it doesnt seem to work. Niether does writing in my diary anymore. Also how do you tell your cousin that shes bening a bitch by hanging out with the people she sees like whenever she want over people she sees only like a few times a year? like come on, you can see your other cousins anyday yet the ones that drive from another country get ignored??? its bull shit and i want to tell her but i cant cause i dont know how to tell her with out her geting mad at me and hating me cause i do value her friendship and what and when i do get to spend time with her and i have fun but its geting to the point were i want to just tell her to fuck off and go to hell but i cant cause i'm not like that and again i want to hurt my self cause i strat to think that its because of me that she doesnt hang out with me when i'm thre and i'm know that its not true but i cant help but think that cause my self esteem has been shote to shit by others and it...i cant think of other words to descibe it... so please if you have any adivce on how to deal with these problems without hurting mysefl then please tell me...i'm so close to the edge its not funny.