Friends Only
One minute you're waiting for the sky to fall
The next you're dazzled by the beauty of it all
I just really like those lyrics, this song. (Lovers in a Dangerous Time, Barenaked Ladies- I know very few people who listen to such poppy music, but still, I like it.)
Gotta kick at the darkness till it bleeds daylight
Yes. Well. There's certainly more showing through now, despite the odd cloudy day. And some days when the clouds seem really dark and it's like living in Alaska where the sun won't rise again for months, and then it does, suddenly, takes you by surprise, a little bit, because it had been so dark.
Things have been happening recently. A couple of things, on the news, or just new people around the house that make me miss Melissa, make me want to see her again so much. Things that make it harder, make just being here harder. But there are all the things that make it worth being here as well and I won't forget a single one of them.
It's been a while since anyone's looked at me sideways in the corridors at school. That's nice. Not that I believe it won't happen again, because everybody knows- thinks they know- what happened, so of course they're going to look. And talk, but I haven't overheard anything for a while either.
And the other day I actually went out and met new people and played music with them and I thought it was going to be terrible but it wasn't. Tristan had bought me a little tiara with purple fluff which is sitting on top of my computer now, glittering. Salem was staring at it before, I think it insulted his sense of catty dignity, and he hissed and ran off when I came back in. Tristan was right, his band is fantastic, although I'm no green haired wonder.
I just remembered I'm supposed to have finished my English homework by tomorrow morning, so I'm going to be naughty, and do it in bed.
Goodnight, everyone.
The next you're dazzled by the beauty of it all
I just really like those lyrics, this song. (Lovers in a Dangerous Time, Barenaked Ladies- I know very few people who listen to such poppy music, but still, I like it.)
Gotta kick at the darkness till it bleeds daylight
Yes. Well. There's certainly more showing through now, despite the odd cloudy day. And some days when the clouds seem really dark and it's like living in Alaska where the sun won't rise again for months, and then it does, suddenly, takes you by surprise, a little bit, because it had been so dark.
Things have been happening recently. A couple of things, on the news, or just new people around the house that make me miss Melissa, make me want to see her again so much. Things that make it harder, make just being here harder. But there are all the things that make it worth being here as well and I won't forget a single one of them.
It's been a while since anyone's looked at me sideways in the corridors at school. That's nice. Not that I believe it won't happen again, because everybody knows- thinks they know- what happened, so of course they're going to look. And talk, but I haven't overheard anything for a while either.
And the other day I actually went out and met new people and played music with them and I thought it was going to be terrible but it wasn't. Tristan had bought me a little tiara with purple fluff which is sitting on top of my computer now, glittering. Salem was staring at it before, I think it insulted his sense of catty dignity, and he hissed and ran off when I came back in. Tristan was right, his band is fantastic, although I'm no green haired wonder.
I just remembered I'm supposed to have finished my English homework by tomorrow morning, so I'm going to be naughty, and do it in bed.
Goodnight, everyone.