Title: Break Me
Pairing: KaiXReita
Chapters: 14/?
Rating: NC-17
Genre: AU- High school, Angst, Drama, Family, Romance
Length: 4067 words
Warnings: Abuse, suicide attempts, yaoi love, Uke Reita and a hell lot of my sick twisted imaginations....
Disclaimer: Hell yeah I own them; if you stupidly believe this page of lies. xP
Summary: Have you ever feels that you don’t belong in this world? Like you don’t have a place, even the tiniest place in the good Earth as everything is going against you? I did.
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“Do you have something to tell me?” Reita asks, clutching the mysterious postcard tight so that Kai couldn’t take it away. “Kai? Do you? Are you sick? Do you suffer from something that you're hiding from me??” He pursues, one hand clutches Kai’s arm tight, his dark eyes blaze in concern and worry.
“Reita….,” Kai whimpered; sighing deeply as he lowered his body and curling himself against Reita’s chest. “I’m fine…”
Reita was not satisfied at all with the careless reply but he keeps his silence for a moment as he hugs Kai tight, caressing the mahogany strands lovingly. He kisses the damp forehead, inhaling the mix of fresh scent of the minty shampoo and Kai’s own unique scent as he tightens his hug before resting his forehead against Kai’s head.
“Don’t hide anything from me….Please…,” he whimpers, catching the other’s gaze with his stern worried eyes.
“I'm not hiding anything…. Besides, you already know….,” Kai mumbles, his voice almost inaudible though it is loud enough for Reita to hear.
“Know what?” Reita exclaims loudly, pulling Kai’s shoulder up so that their eyes could meet. “What is it, Kai??”
Kai just smiles at him, yawning a huge yawn before he sort of collapses onto Reita, his head now resting on the crook of Reita’s neck. He sighs tiredly and Reita cringes in bewilderment as he shudders a bit-he swears that Kai’s breath feels ghastly cold against his skin. Reita is about to point that out (and perhaps drag Kai straight to the school’s nurse) but Kai sighs again, and everything seems normal, the exhaled breath to his collarbone is warm like usual, everything seems very normal; aside from Kai’s lack of energy that night. Reita tightens his arms around Kai’s shoulders and he smiles a bit when Kai’s arms come up to wrap around him too though he is again shocked when a soft snore suddenly escapes the brunette student.
Reita knows instantly that something is really wrong with Kai.
Kai had never been like this before-the brunette’s lack of energy and the lack of the usual urge to molest him thoroughly-worried Reita a lot
Hence, Reita carefully slid his way out from being crushed by Kai and loomed over the sleeping brunette, caging Kai between his limbs. He frowns then, not liking the way Kai’s skin seems to be a hell lot paler and sick white than normal and he swears that Kai had stopped radiating heat. Reita could literally feel the wave of cold sensation that emitted from the brunette and he starts to debate with himself.
Should he drag Kai to the school’s nurse now?
Reita is just about to smash his lips against Kai’s parted ones when he heard it.
The soft whispery voice that was calling his name softly.
Akira.
Reita’s head snapped up from staring down at the sleeping Kai to the open window of their shared room. He perks up his ears, wondering if he is imagining things before he hears the voice again, this time clearer-the soft motherly female voice is definitely calling him.
Akira.
Suzuki Akira.
He blinks in daze-though it surprises him that he is not scared at all by the disembodied voice-as he walks towards the window, his dark eyes wildly searching for the owner of the voice.
“Who is there?” He calls softly, looking down the window just in case someone is down there and actually calling him.
A gasp of shock escapes him when he feels a light push-just a tiny push from a very light matter that is nowhere near to a solid mass-on his back and he swears that he felt a pair of hands rest on his shoulders and force him down. Reita is in shock and daze that he could barely make a sound-he doubts it is possible for him to make any sound as he could feel an invisible cold palm over his mouth-while he falls face-first out of the window. He closes his eyes, waiting for death or being maimed terribly before strong warm arms wrap around his waist and he finds himself dangling dangerously in the air, he is thankfully trapped in one strong hold of a panting brunette.
“WHAT ARE YOU DOING??!”
Reita clutches tightly to the arm that is preventing him from falling to the hard bricked pavement below; he now finally notices how hard his heart is thumping beneath his chest and the tears that flow down his cheeks. He gasps again as Kai pulls him back into the safety of the room and soon he find himself hugging Kai tight, crying in fear and shock to the bare damp chest. Kai’s other hand makes contact with him almost the next second, the hand soothingly rubs his back, soft lips kiss his forehead and hair while Kai murmurs comforting words to him.
“Something…something was pulling me down….Kai! I’m scared…,” Reita sobs, now he is visibly shaking in fear.
“Shhh….It’s fine now…You’re safe. You’re safe…,” Kai murmurs kindly, tightening his hug around the shaking terrified blond as his bewildered dark eyes wildly search for something outside the open window.
Reita’s head snaps up to stare incredulously at Kai when the chest he is sobbing against rumbles violently, a feral inhuman snarl escapes the brunette.
“Kai? What was that?” He questions and swears that he sees Kai’s eyes change to pitch black for a split millisecond before turning back to the normal human’s eyes.
Man, this is the second time he has seen Kai’s eyes change color…He has started to doubt that it is his imagination.
“Nothing…,” this single word was nothing but a compressed angry snarl. Kai tilts Reita’s face up, smiling tightly to his terrified lover. “Reita, why don’t you go down to the pantry? Boil some water and I’ll make you a nice cup of hot chocolate later. I will come down as soon as I'm done changing and after I take care of some business….,” Kai instructs, pulling a random pair of pants from his closet as he almost forcefully pushes Reita out of the room.
“But Kai-” Reita tries to protest, too shaken and freaked out to walk alone downstairs to the pantry though Kai suddenly silences him with a kiss, the strong arms gently hugs him in a comforting manner.
“Just go down, okay? I’ll be there soon.”
Obediently, the blond nods and quickly made his way to the pantry, too scared of his imagination that some scary things might grab his legs from the darkness and there is no Kai around to save him. Reita switches on every lamp available on his way while he quickens his pace to the pantry. As soon as he reaches the pantry, he boils the water and sits on a chair, his knees drawn up to his chest as he curls there, cutely nibbling on his nails.
Meanwhile back upstairs, behind the closed door of their room, Kai snarls dangerously as he thoroughly sheds all of his disguises, leaving him in his true form. He flexes his muscles a bit, secretly relieved at the fact that he could finally throw the annoying disguises off. He stared outside the window, his pitch black eyes blaze in fury, the green tint of his pupils glowed angrily against the black of his eyes as he raised one clawed hands, strong fingers curled in a grabbing motion and all of sudden two females are drawn to him. They are now kneeling, literally crumpled by his feet.
Kai growls again, his sharp fangs snap violently while he lowers his head to glare at the now terrified females, his majestic sculptured horns slowly appear while his leathery pointed tail carefully wound itself around the hugging female demons. With his eyes still blazing with burning fury-threat and torment were promised in his glare-to the terrified females, his tail suddenly tightens around both females, making them whimper in pain.
“You've got exactly 30 seconds to explain the reasons you tried to kill my mate before I rip your miserable asses off…,” he hisses sharply, his tail tightens more around the trapped females thus rewarding him with a very satisfied sounds of bones slowly crushing.
“But Your Majesty-aaahh!!!”
“Please...Spare us!”
More whimpers of pain as Kai is not in his merciful mode when it’s involving Reita’s life.
“KAI, STOP IT!”
That sudden shout successfully stopped Kai’s little torment on the abused females. His gaze now focused on the beautiful demon that just landed into his room; he is certainly not amused with her orders directed to him.
Though, he keeps his composed face as he stares at her in a calculative manner.
“Maria.” He said, acknowledging her.
“What are you doing? Trying to kill your own minions??!!” She snaps back at him, her own purple eyes blaze in disbelief and anger.
“I won’t tolerate with anyone when it involves my mate’s life being threatened…,” Kai hisses back, baring his fangs to her.
“Even Her Highness Queen of Underworld herself?” She retorts back, now she is smirking at him.
Kai’s face twisted to a look of utter disbelief and shock.
“What?
Maria smirks wider. “Her Highness herself ordered us to destroy that boy”
Kai’s face is a total horror despite the fact that he is a demon.
“MY MOTHER ORDERED THIS??”
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Reita.
Reita.
The voice, it keeps calling for him.
Reita…Aki…AKIRA!!
Reita shifts around in the darkness, not knowing what to do.
Should he answer the call?
He is scared, because the last time a disembodied voice called him; he nearly fell off the second floor.
But this voice is different from before. Calm, soothing and obviously pleading to him. You can sense the hope and desperation in the soft pleas. And did the voice sounds strangely familiar to him. So comforting, so loving and so soft that it pierces straight to his heart.
Unable to resist himself, Reita squeaks out timidly. “Yes? Who is there?”
Akira.
It was a sigh of relief.
“Yes?”
Do you remember me?
“Umm….,” Reita hesitates for a moment, trying to recall that voice back though his brain refuses his attempt. “Sorry…But no…”
Silence.
“Hello?”
More silence.
“I’m sorry! I don’t mean to offend you or anything! I just can't remember who you are!” Reita blurts out in panic, he actually felt bad as if he offended the disembodied voice.
You have to…
“Pardon me?” Reita squeaks curiously, now starting to freak out at the overwhelming sadness in the soft disembodied pleas.
You have to remember me…
“But who are yo-”
Time is ticking away….
“What?”
I don’t have much time left…
“Why? What is happening?” Now Reita is seriously panicked.
Remember me…
“But I don’t know who you are!!” This one is a helpless pitiful cry.
Suzuki Akira, you have to remember our old promise!!!
“Wha-” Reita shot up from his slumber at the sharp command and he sits there on the joined beds of him and Kai, literally sweating bullets as he tries his best to calm his quick ragged pants back to normal rate.
Once he is breathing calmly again, he buries his face to his knees, trying hard to remember any promises he may have forgotten before he gives up and resolves to lie back on the bed and regain his former position in Kai’s arms. He carefully lifts the limp arms and slides close to Kai’s chest before he drapes the arms back onto his shoulder. He sighs against Kai’s bare chest, inhaling the other’s scent deeply before he reaches up to caress the slacked jaw and he actually smiles a bit at Kai’s snoring face.
That is, until he notices a very weird mark behind Kai’s on the back his neck.
Curious and worried, Reita carefully brushes Kai’s hair away from the hidden mark and soon is gasping in shock when he realizes that it is no mark.
It is an actual black hole.
A deep hole that he can actually poke his finger inside. Really.
His jaw slacked down in shock then.
It is weird enough that Kai has that hole on his neck, but it turns out weirder when that hole, is just a hole. With no flesh, blood or bones…
Just an empty hole; a hole that shows nothing but a mysterious endless oblivion.
Reita gasps loudly, now he is carefully turning Kai’s head to the side so that he could get a better look at the hole before his jaw slacked down wider, his shock overwhelmed him so much that in his worries of this weird hole, he slaps Kai awake in one swift motion of his strong fingers thus earning him a yelp from the sleeping brunette. Groggily, Kai wakes up and he props his body up with one arm while staring at Reita.
“Rei-chan?” the brunette mumbles sleepily, rubbing one eye with his hand.
“Kai! What is this??!!” Reita exclaims sharply as he literally wrestles Kai down and brushes the shaggy hair off the strong neck, only to be shocked then when nothing out of place or seems wrong with the other’s neck.
Everything is normal.
“Urm…That is my neck?” Kai asks sleepily as he tries to look at the part of his neck that Reita is currently focusing on.
“But, but…there…a hole..now…nothing…,” Reita stutters, mumbling in shock and disbelief as he now is seriously unable to form a proper sentence.
Kai smiles softly and gently pulls the blond close to him in a loving embrace. He kisses the top of Reita’s forehead, before his lips trail down to the other’s lips. He sighs against Reita’s lips and soon is smiling in content when Reita neared their distance, soft lips gently pressing against his own while slender strong fingers protectively make their ways around his waist, connecting together right at the slight curve of his ass in one gentle hug. Reita keeps kissing him like that as Kai feels he is being turned over; Reita is now atop of him, kissing him deep while the slender hands are touching everywhere possible with strategic movements as if he is checking on Kai. Kai shudders a bit, moaning softly when Reita’s hands accidently presses too hard on one of his sore and hurt muscles. Reita gasps at that before the blond smiles and kiss the hurting part before he starts massaging Kai’s body.
“Feel better?” Reita asks then when he hears Kai sigh in content to his little ministration.
Kai chuckles. “Yes.” He leans up to kiss Reita. “Thank you.”
“Any time.” Reita smiles softly and pats Kai’s head, only to be shocked to what it seems like the millionth time that night when Kai yawns again, the dark eyes strain hard to stay open behind the lazy pale eyelids.
“What was that all about? Why did you wake me up?” Kai questions softly as he gives out another huge yawn. “Did you have nightmares Reita?” he adds, smiling again though his eyes are heavy-lidded with exhaustion and tiredness.
Reita opens his mouth to answer, only to close it back a few seconds later. It may have been a dream. That weird hole-like thing at the back of Kai’s neck; it may just been one of his nightmares. Or just an imagination of his groggy sleep-influenced head. Thus, he smiles, kissing Kai again apologetically before he snuggles against the wide chest.
“Yeah. I had a nightmare. Sorry for waking you up, Kai…,”he sighs against Kai’s chest and tightens his hug.
“Need another shot of hot chocolate?” Kai grins weakly, moving his hand to caress Reita’s back.
Reita laughs half-heartedly. “No. You look like you need a good rest and sleep…,” he mutters, kissing Kai’s cheeks again. “Go to sleep, baby…”
Usually Kai would protest and insist of dragging Reita back to the pantry and make the blond another sweet steaming cup of hot chocolate but this time Kai doesn’t protest. He just sighs tiredly and relaxes his body before he fell once more to his slumber. Reita just lies there, safe and warm in Kai’s embrace as he stares at the brunette and smiles at the thought of how adorable the brunette could look like when he is sleeping.
But, there is something that's still bothering Reita.
Though he tries to deny it; Reita is pretty sure that there was a hole at the back of Kai’s neck.
A weird mysterious hole at that.
And when he poked his finger inside the hole earlier, he could feel a pulling force that tried to suck his finger deeper inside the hole.
Really…
What is happening?
What is Kai hiding from him?
And most important of all, what was his dream about?
An old promise?
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“Hey, Reita!” Mizuki calls sternly, her voice is low and whispery as she motions Reita to come closer to her.
Reita actually glares at the girl as he reluctantly moves away from the sleeping Kai and stomps toward the girl. “What?” He asks, totally rude and displeased.
Mizuki rolls her eyes at the unfriendly reply as she pushes Nao and Kyo towards Reita. “Now, you three…Go help Kai back to his bed, and you, Reita…,” she points directly to his covered nose, “….make sure he is properly rested. I have asked the school nurse to drop by at your dorm to check on him so I want you to keep an eye on our leader-sama until he is out from this exhausted state. Geez, it’s the climax of the festival and he is sick. What a mood killer….,” she half-grumbles though her eyes soften at the sight of Kai’s pale and tired face as the brunette curls awkwardly on the table. “Quick. I don’t think that the chair is comfortable for him…,” she shoos, pushing all three boys with her single arm towards the sleeping brunette.
“You know, Mizuki…You don’t have to grumble. Reita is the one that is supposed to be grumbling since today is his birthday and yet his boyfriend has fallen sick…,” Kyo smiles as he carefully pulls Kai up from the metal chair and supports the sleeping boy in his arm.
“Worst birthday ever, Reita?” Nao laughs cheekily as he helps Kyo drag Kai away from there with Reita trailing behind them; the blond has all of Kai’s stuff in his hold.
Truth is, Reita isn't in the mood to celebrate his birthday at all. Since the beginning of this festival, he has noticed that Kai has dramatically grown weaker and sicker. It was like something is draining Kai’s life power away, rendering him weak and drained like that. The brunette always ended up dozed off any time possible-heck, he even fell asleep standing while waiting their customers. Reita is seriously worried that he thought he has develop an awesome eyesight as he now can serve his customers and watch each of Kai’s movements with his concerned gaze. He also made it is a compulsory to drag Kai to the school nurse’s office every evening though the new nurse doesn’t said anything but resting her hand on Reita’s shoulder and tells him (with ominous tone) that Kai’s condition is depending on him.
What is that supposed to mean?
And he swears that the busty new nurse has the ability to change the colour of her eyes too.
Honest, it has been more than three times he witnessed the icy blue eyes of the new nurse change to dramatic purple while the white of her eyes turn pitch black.
He wouldn’t even doubt it if all of sudden he find out that Kai has blood relationship with the nurse.
But frankly speaking, Ms.Maria does freak him out a bit.
“Nnnmmm….,” a soft moan from his side and Reita is snapped out from his thoughts as he shifts his stare towards Kai, now he is delighted that the brunette is stirring and stretching his limbs, dark eyes slowly open. “Um? Where am I?”
Reita smiles and leans down to kiss Kai’s cheek. “At our room. Mizuki wants you to have proper rest…”
Kai’s brows shot up in surprise. “She actually allows us, her hottest butlers, to skip work on climax day?”
Reita grins at that. “Maybe she is not as self-centered and demanding like we thought she is~~” he says, caressing Kai’s hair lovingly. “You okay?”
Kai smiles back at him, flashing his deep dimple. “Never better.”
Somehow, Reita really doubts Kai’s words.
“Kai…,” he starts, clutching Kai’s hand tight.
“Yes, baby?” Kai smiles wider at him, now he is slowly getting up to a comfortable sitting position.
Reita is about to ask Kai so many things. These past two weeks have been crazy weeks for him. He keeps seeing things-shadows, demonic apparitions and other scary things-every time he is alone and no Kai is around and also hearing voices calling his name repeatedly. It has driven him crazy and for some unknown reasons, he is positive that everything is connected to Kai.
And not to mention those nightmares he has. Those nightmares are not scary at all; in fact they are like pieces of memories, dark blurry memories of him with someone very important during his childhood but what terrified Reita the most is his gut feeling that tells him if he couldn’t break the mystery of the dreams, he will regret it forever.
And his always accurate hunch tells him that everything is connected to his boyfriend.
He has so many things to ask Kai.
However, after seeing how beaten Kai is, the exhaustion that written all over the face of the boy he loved so much, Reita doesn’t have the heart to keep Kai up and interrogate the other. Hence, he just smiles and kisses Kai; sharing another sweet loving kiss together before Kai starts to deepen the kiss and dominate Reita in one hot sexy kiss.
“Never mind. Just go to sleep, Kai. I’ll go make you something to eat.” He says then, slightly out of breath due to the earlier hot kiss before he kisses Kai’s forehead and tucks the other neatly under the blankets.
Kai nods tiredly before closing his eyes and Reita is not surprised at all when he hears soft snores escape the brunette almost a second after that. He kisses Kai’s forehead again and slowly slides off the bed. He closes the door of their shared bedroom silently and walks to the pantry and starts cooking. He decides that he could make Kai something with lots of cabbages-something he notices that Kai loves a lot-along with warm soup and perhaps some pudding too. Reita then takes out the ingredients and happily starts working on it.
“Akira.”
Reita stops chopping the cabbages and turn around to see who is calling him. He smiles at the busty woman then. “Hello, Ms. Maria...,” he greets, smiling wider at the sight of the nurse. “Kai is upstairs.”
“I’m not looking for him.”
Reita is shocked at the cold reply and soon is gaping in horror at the sight before his eyes. The knife in his hand fell to the table with a muted sound as his eyes are fixed on the woman and watches her warm fair skin turn paler than average human should be, her icy blue irises turn a glowing purple while the whites of her eyes turn pitch black. He starts to panic when he realizes the snapping pointed tail that somehow is connected to her back and also the way her previously manicured nails turns to dangerous elegant claws. He retreats, scrambling backwards in panic until he finally realizes that he is trapped between the demonic being and the kitchen counter.
“What?” He squeaks out, not knowing if he makes any sense at all.
The demon woman smiles bitterly. “Sorry sweetheart. We have to destroy you to save our king.”
And all that Reita remembers is the fluid movement of the woman as she lunges towards him, her claws ready and poised to attack and he gasps, intending to scream though he failed that attempt. All that he can see is her determined gaze before everything turns black.
Maria stood there with Reita’s limp body in her grasp as she licks the trickling crimson blood on her claws. She watches the blonde’s pale face and sighs heavily.
“I am going to need the queen’s protection. Kai will kill me for this.”
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A/n: O.O Did I just make Maria killed Reita? xP
Lol. This is supposedly to be way longer, along with a hot smut but since I have decide to be that evil bitch that love teasing you, I cut it here and save the rest for later. Even my beta hasn’t got a peek of the continuation. XD
Not much to say, I’m still tired from the long journey of visiting grandma so enjoy your reading and tell me your thoughts!