Thoughts...
I decided I should attempt to write something in here since it has been way too long since I last spewed my thoughts down onto something instead of keeping them locked away. Over these past few weeks I have been feeling completely lost, the act of getting a job seems mind-numbing, even with proposed help of an agency it still seems pathetic and hopeless to even try. I feel bored with my life yet I don't do anything regarding it, I feel exercise would be a good left off of steam and healthy nun the less but I can't be bothered. At this point in time there is only one thing that I consider interesting and motivates me to pursue it, this is reading. True Hallucinations by Terence McKenna has rekindled my interest with reading again, oh it has been such a long time since I’ve read but I’m delighted to be getting back into it. I feel myself becoming less inclined to socialize simply because I hate it.
The Central Coast is a beautiful place yet it's such a cesspool of fashion fucks who couldn’t give a damn except for the massaging of their own egos. The act of going out to a club drinking, dancing like a fuck and this is meant to be enjoyable. Now with the correct music, atmosphere, and friends that seems to paint a better picture, hell I’d probably do the same except for one thing people don't seem to like good music anymore they want simple beats and dismal rhymes from shit rappers or dance music where you don't have to think or analyze or decide if you enjoy it or not you just dance. Another sociable tendency is the procedure of "hooking up" or finding another potential piece of meat to have their way with. I don't now or will i ever understand the mentality you must get to obtain to believe that what you are in the hunt for is a precise way to act.
For these reason I firmly believe that I will never or at least on the central coast find anyone with has these same beliefs as me and I will never find what I’m looking for I mean that in a romantic sense.
Sometimes I wish I were some sort of simply minded animal I would probably have a more gratifying life.
Enough ranting for today...
The Central Coast is a beautiful place yet it's such a cesspool of fashion fucks who couldn’t give a damn except for the massaging of their own egos. The act of going out to a club drinking, dancing like a fuck and this is meant to be enjoyable. Now with the correct music, atmosphere, and friends that seems to paint a better picture, hell I’d probably do the same except for one thing people don't seem to like good music anymore they want simple beats and dismal rhymes from shit rappers or dance music where you don't have to think or analyze or decide if you enjoy it or not you just dance. Another sociable tendency is the procedure of "hooking up" or finding another potential piece of meat to have their way with. I don't now or will i ever understand the mentality you must get to obtain to believe that what you are in the hunt for is a precise way to act.
For these reason I firmly believe that I will never or at least on the central coast find anyone with has these same beliefs as me and I will never find what I’m looking for I mean that in a romantic sense.
Sometimes I wish I were some sort of simply minded animal I would probably have a more gratifying life.
Enough ranting for today...