I do beat myself up forever if I feel I've offended someone.
I feel quite stupid now. I don't think I'll go to the school today. I can't concentrate. I feel like I offended someone and I probaby did and now they will probably never talk to me again. What sucks is I was on a roll with my chem yesterday and now I feel so bad that I can't think and I just want to go to my room and be alone but I don't want to stay in the house and I am all confused and will be until I find out whether they hate me now or not. I feel so terrible. stupid letter "a" it is all your fault why were thee there. argh. What am I supposed to do now??? I cannot concentrate so I cannot do anything and I feel so dumb I don't want to talk and if I go to the school people will want to talk to me and I'm sorry I didn't know and I don't know what happened and I am so caught up when I feel like I've offended someone because all I think is that they hate me now and that is the end and they were one of the only good friends I've made out here finally. How can I express my terrible hate for ns. I'm sorry it isn't personal though. The nicest people I've met live out here. I feel like moving here is one of the most traumatic experiences in my life. If I do go to school I will look like a wreck so whatever. I'm only ever in the library anyway so fuck all them poeple that bother me. They are the type of people who wouldn't be caught dead in the library anyway because it is a "nerd" place and whatever those people can go to hell. I still feel like I owe an extreme apology to the one I feel I may have offended and I can understand their decision. I always feel this bad when I think I pissed someone off. I'm sorry Kite.