weekend venting
well this weekend was awsome, i hung out with kristy most of the time.our show saturday might sucked big money nuts. i really wish certain people would get there act together and have some responsibility, because its really setting us back.i just dont know about the whole thing anymore. i was reading my friends lj yesterday, and he said that he's not starting this whole hardcore band because beacuse its almost a waiste of his talents, well that kinda how i feel about me playing in my band. i mean i love playing drums n everything but im sick of playing bad shows and losing money and being ridiculed for bad performances when everyone does an awsome job except for one person. and this is the same person that is obssesed with "making it big" the one person that wants it the most, puts the least effort into it. i just dont get it. oh well, i better stop venting before i get myself in trouble. i just want to be able to do and play the music that i write and love instead of selling myself short in sake of " making it big" screw that. anyways... back to me and kristy, everything was unbelievable this past weekend. almost like a dream. i know for sure what my feelings are for her im just waiting for the right moment i geuss. i wanted to tell her so bad these past few days but i didnt really just want to say it just for the heck of it , i really wanted to make sure thats what im feeling. but yeah we went to this lake and watched the sunset (corny i know) it was really cool though and im glad i got to spend the time i did with her. well school is stressin me out like you wouldnt believe, ive only got 1 month to finsh 1 1/2 credits and its all in math so its gonna be a close finish, but im gonna head on out, so i can get some of this work done. (oh and if anyone makes a comment on the whole sunset thing ill find you and stab you in the eye!) later