Beginning, Ending, Beginning, Ending...
Almost every post on my friends list, almost every person I've spoken too. Everyone has the same thing to say. Good ridden 2009.
Despite all of the misery last year seems to have brought around... everyone has the hope that this year will be better. I'm just another person in the long line of those who have had what felt like a really tough year. I've always felt like a pretty lucky person. Even when things go bad, I'm the type that's willing to see it as nothing else but a part of the journey. This year was definitely a test at that! Around every corner it felt like I didn't want to keep on. The things I've depended on the most in the past became things that I couldn't depend on no matter how hard I tried. But I found out that there are things I can depend on that I had never expected! For once I didn't have the chance to say 'I'll be strong by myself because there isn't any other choice.'
It was really nice not be given the choice to be on my own. I think all people have the selfish desire, even if its just once, to be given a helping hand when we feel like we're down and we cant get back up. Even if this year was a hard test, painful, and confusing... I really feel like I was given the gift of help. It means a lot not to have had to go through it all on my own this time around. Maybe it makes me weaker, a little less self sufficient. I'm willing to make that trade for just a little while.
I'm going to keep on with the tradition of not making resolutions. I like not knowing what will happen in the coming years. I know bad moments and good ones will always be there. We just have to take them as they come and realize that one moment isn't really any better than another, its just what you get out of it. We'll all go into this year a little worse for wear I think... A year older, things get harder, we get harder.
So my only request is that none of you forget to stay young at heart and realize there's something deeper to be found in all of your moments. Even the really fucking horrible awful make-this-all-go-away-right-now moments. It wont make them any better, they'll still be there and be the worst. But... you made it through them, didn't you?
I really hope all of my friends can feel stronger, more alive, and determined in the years to come.
And I hope that when you guys cant (Because let's face it... there comes points when ALL of us feel like we cant. And that's most the time, I think. At least it is for me!) You don't have to do it alone. Even if it feels like you have to struggle by yourself for a little while... I think everyone will get the chance to feel like someone is going to pull them up by the hand. Not because you aren't strong, not because you're a burden. But because you're human and lovely and you deserve it. And maybe you'll be able to give it back to someone when they need that hand too.
I love you all. Not everything will be perfect but as long as you're willing to keep on, it's going to be worth it.
Don't give up. ♥
Despite all of the misery last year seems to have brought around... everyone has the hope that this year will be better. I'm just another person in the long line of those who have had what felt like a really tough year. I've always felt like a pretty lucky person. Even when things go bad, I'm the type that's willing to see it as nothing else but a part of the journey. This year was definitely a test at that! Around every corner it felt like I didn't want to keep on. The things I've depended on the most in the past became things that I couldn't depend on no matter how hard I tried. But I found out that there are things I can depend on that I had never expected! For once I didn't have the chance to say 'I'll be strong by myself because there isn't any other choice.'
It was really nice not be given the choice to be on my own. I think all people have the selfish desire, even if its just once, to be given a helping hand when we feel like we're down and we cant get back up. Even if this year was a hard test, painful, and confusing... I really feel like I was given the gift of help. It means a lot not to have had to go through it all on my own this time around. Maybe it makes me weaker, a little less self sufficient. I'm willing to make that trade for just a little while.
I'm going to keep on with the tradition of not making resolutions. I like not knowing what will happen in the coming years. I know bad moments and good ones will always be there. We just have to take them as they come and realize that one moment isn't really any better than another, its just what you get out of it. We'll all go into this year a little worse for wear I think... A year older, things get harder, we get harder.
So my only request is that none of you forget to stay young at heart and realize there's something deeper to be found in all of your moments. Even the really fucking horrible awful make-this-all-go-away-right-now moments. It wont make them any better, they'll still be there and be the worst. But... you made it through them, didn't you?
I really hope all of my friends can feel stronger, more alive, and determined in the years to come.
And I hope that when you guys cant (Because let's face it... there comes points when ALL of us feel like we cant. And that's most the time, I think. At least it is for me!) You don't have to do it alone. Even if it feels like you have to struggle by yourself for a little while... I think everyone will get the chance to feel like someone is going to pull them up by the hand. Not because you aren't strong, not because you're a burden. But because you're human and lovely and you deserve it. And maybe you'll be able to give it back to someone when they need that hand too.
I love you all. Not everything will be perfect but as long as you're willing to keep on, it's going to be worth it.
Don't give up. ♥