what she said
reading this left me speechless:
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
go brooke yourself and stay the fuck away from me.
"Okay, so I've listened to and dealt with most of your bullshit and let it go. I've reached the end of my rope with you. Stay the fuck out of my life. Like I didn't know that you've been in love with me since a year into our friendship, you still were less then a month ago. Did you ever stop to think that I don't want you? If I've known you were in love with me, you make it obvious to almost everyone who knows us, and I haven't tried to date you in the five years I've known about it you think you'd realize I DON'T WANT YOU! I wanted my friend but that girl I loved and cared about is long gone. All you do is stir shit up. Like you're gods gift, fuck you. All you do is make everyone who disagrees with you or doesn't make you the center of their world miserable. Fuck you. If you think that this relationship means nothing to either of us then you can live in your delusional world. You never take the blame for anything you do, the cutting and drug use was always someone else's fault. It was our fault you cut? Are you retarded or something? I didn't put that blade to your skin, you did. I didn't force Vicoden down your throat, you took them. You chose to take them. Stop blaming everyone else for your life sucking. If you want better make it yourself, don't put your shit on everyone else. God, I was so proud of you not long ago. That stopped the minute you fucked with the girl I love. Yes, I love her. I would do anything for her. Get over yourself. If you want to hate someone? Hate me you stupid cunt. I'm the one who started it. I'm the one that annonced my feelings for her and she was the one who denied me for the longest time, for you! She didn't want hurt you. She refused to do that to you. I had to convince her to be with me. I did it. So get off your damn high horse. I love her, and you can try and tell both of us that it's not true but it is. I love everything about her, and I'll wait forever for the two of us to get to be normal. She is everything I could ever want and so much more. She's beautiful inside and out. She helped me see that I'm not worthless, that I do mean something. If tomorrow she told me she wanted me there I would pack my shit and leave without a second thought because I am so in love with her that I can't see straight. And in all this time she's never stopped loving you. She's been so closed off since you pushed her out of your life. You made her feel like she was so low and worthless for being happy for once in her life. I hope someday you realize how disgusting that is, how absolutely appalling the way you treated the only person who always stood up for you, who was the first to jump in and try to fix things, to help you. The only person that saw nothing but the beauty in you unconditionally and loved you and defended you to the death. I don't want to be with, and especially after this I will want to be with you. You make anyone around you who doesn't make you their number one priority feel like shit. Like you're somehow better then everyone else. News flash? You aren't god's gift to man and woman. You're just a bitch who gets off on hurting people for things they can't control. You make people guilty for being happy and you're a complete child. You are completely immature about everything and you act like you're the hottest bitch around. You aren't honey, believe me. Keep going down the path you are. Keep putting people down for being happy, keep making everyone's life revolve around you, one day it'll come back to you. Karma is definitely not on your side, one day you'll get it all back and by then you'll have lost the people that had tried to love you. Loved you for your bad qualities and your good ones. The one's who took you at your worst and your best, that deserved to be your friend. That was her. Hell, not even I could stomach you at your worst. She's a much more compassionate person when it comes to you then I will ever be.
Stay the fuck away from me Cari. You just lost the person you were "in love" with for years because you couldn't act like a mature individual. Because you had to treat the person who would walk through fire for you like the gum under your shoe and she didn't deserve any of it. If you want someone to hate, let that be me. She still cares about you and loves you even after you were horrible to her. So if you want to start talking to someone again let it be her because after the things you said if I never hear from you again it wouldn't phase me. I hope you're happy now, because I will never think of you as a friend or even a blip on my radar. You went way too far this time. "
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
go brooke yourself and stay the fuck away from me.
"Okay, so I've listened to and dealt with most of your bullshit and let it go. I've reached the end of my rope with you. Stay the fuck out of my life. Like I didn't know that you've been in love with me since a year into our friendship, you still were less then a month ago. Did you ever stop to think that I don't want you? If I've known you were in love with me, you make it obvious to almost everyone who knows us, and I haven't tried to date you in the five years I've known about it you think you'd realize I DON'T WANT YOU! I wanted my friend but that girl I loved and cared about is long gone. All you do is stir shit up. Like you're gods gift, fuck you. All you do is make everyone who disagrees with you or doesn't make you the center of their world miserable. Fuck you. If you think that this relationship means nothing to either of us then you can live in your delusional world. You never take the blame for anything you do, the cutting and drug use was always someone else's fault. It was our fault you cut? Are you retarded or something? I didn't put that blade to your skin, you did. I didn't force Vicoden down your throat, you took them. You chose to take them. Stop blaming everyone else for your life sucking. If you want better make it yourself, don't put your shit on everyone else. God, I was so proud of you not long ago. That stopped the minute you fucked with the girl I love. Yes, I love her. I would do anything for her. Get over yourself. If you want to hate someone? Hate me you stupid cunt. I'm the one who started it. I'm the one that annonced my feelings for her and she was the one who denied me for the longest time, for you! She didn't want hurt you. She refused to do that to you. I had to convince her to be with me. I did it. So get off your damn high horse. I love her, and you can try and tell both of us that it's not true but it is. I love everything about her, and I'll wait forever for the two of us to get to be normal. She is everything I could ever want and so much more. She's beautiful inside and out. She helped me see that I'm not worthless, that I do mean something. If tomorrow she told me she wanted me there I would pack my shit and leave without a second thought because I am so in love with her that I can't see straight. And in all this time she's never stopped loving you. She's been so closed off since you pushed her out of your life. You made her feel like she was so low and worthless for being happy for once in her life. I hope someday you realize how disgusting that is, how absolutely appalling the way you treated the only person who always stood up for you, who was the first to jump in and try to fix things, to help you. The only person that saw nothing but the beauty in you unconditionally and loved you and defended you to the death. I don't want to be with, and especially after this I will want to be with you. You make anyone around you who doesn't make you their number one priority feel like shit. Like you're somehow better then everyone else. News flash? You aren't god's gift to man and woman. You're just a bitch who gets off on hurting people for things they can't control. You make people guilty for being happy and you're a complete child. You are completely immature about everything and you act like you're the hottest bitch around. You aren't honey, believe me. Keep going down the path you are. Keep putting people down for being happy, keep making everyone's life revolve around you, one day it'll come back to you. Karma is definitely not on your side, one day you'll get it all back and by then you'll have lost the people that had tried to love you. Loved you for your bad qualities and your good ones. The one's who took you at your worst and your best, that deserved to be your friend. That was her. Hell, not even I could stomach you at your worst. She's a much more compassionate person when it comes to you then I will ever be.
Stay the fuck away from me Cari. You just lost the person you were "in love" with for years because you couldn't act like a mature individual. Because you had to treat the person who would walk through fire for you like the gum under your shoe and she didn't deserve any of it. If you want someone to hate, let that be me. She still cares about you and loves you even after you were horrible to her. So if you want to start talking to someone again let it be her because after the things you said if I never hear from you again it wouldn't phase me. I hope you're happy now, because I will never think of you as a friend or even a blip on my radar. You went way too far this time. "