from my phone
just some things i had saved on my old phone that i didn't want to lose with the transfer. might put it on private eventually, but for now i figure i'll share it with my quiet livejournal. i'll seperate each section, i guess.
I-a.
because you have a beauty unlike anyone i've ever known, inside and out. you're genuine and raw, even when you don't mean to be. because i care about you as much as you do me. because, previously, it was your happiness i yearned for you to find your way back to, and now it's outs i want us to breathe, together and individually.
I-b.
you really are incredible, and you deserve to hear it and believe it. not only that, but others deserve to see it too, if only as an inspiration for a reason to believe any of this is worth it. that there are others out there whose souls are like or unlike their own. to see a nearly drowning star in the night sky fight its way through to morning again and again, until those observers make the final decision to join in lighting the darkness. because no one has to rose or fall alone. no one should.
II.
i'm sorry i didn't call your back. i just... i don't know. i think i was a little afraid to talk to you.again. because as soon as i find myself falling short of my facade and showing vulnerability, i've already lost you. maybe that's why i broke down like i did. because i was open and you cared and i never knew you would, and it's too late. not because i don't trust you, but because i don't trust myself. i don't think i've ever been truly jealous or remorseful until now. but i just wanted to tell you i'm sorry. for all those times, especially in the past year, that i didn't answer and waited for the message to see what you had to say. that i let the both of us think it was you i didn't want to deal with when it was clearly myself. if you think cutting of ties with me is best, then i have no choice but to let you go. i love you with every inch of my being, and i always will. but the greatest act of love is sacrifice, and if what you truly want is for me to let go, i can't hold it against you.
III.
You know, or should know, that you are the light of my life.Your love has no comparison to anyone else in this world. You really are the light of my life. There is something sacred in my life and that is from our bond. I have never felt the love I feelfor you than anyone else in my life.Without your love I don't know who I am. You helped mold who I am and who I'll be. And I love every part of you for that.
IV.
every single time i'm high, i think of you and how you disapproved of it. i remember not confronting you on your lie that bothered me so much, and how badly i regret not telling you how i felt. i think about my favorite day with you. i day i wandered and you biked to meet me. it was the first time we fell asleep together. it was when i was truly sure our relationship wasn't a joke to you. i didn't fall in love then, but i knew i was capable of loving you, and you of me.
V-a.
march thirteenth.
""Now for my next trick, I'll need a volunteer! You there!" "Yes... By the way, I hate you, Robbie." "I'm going to ask you to move back and orth and to continue doing so." "Do I have to?" "Yes." ... "Why am I still doing this?!"
"Don't worry, I'm not a wifebeater. I mean, I'm wearing one, but I totally don't hit girls or anything like that."
"Is the twitching a nervous habit?" "I don't think so. I think it's from my aderol." "Oh. Well, maybe I'm being totally conceited here, but I was hoping it was because I was here." "Could be. You comfy?" "Perfect."
"Sorry about the twitching. This is just my first real high and my meds aren't cooperating." "No, no, I'm kind of liking the twitching. it makes things exciting."
"Are you nervous? wait, let me listen. ... I can't tell." "I don't know. But your heart is racing." "Well, I am lying here with an incredibly attractive girl in my arms." "That's a new one." "Being nervous?" "No, that I'm used to. I mean, not that I necessarily am. I mean, I dunno. Being called attractive." "Ohh. Used to hearing gorgeous, or..?" "Yeah, right." "Oh, oh. Let me guess. You usually get, like, sexy mama, or--" "No." "Nothing." "Nope." "See, that doesn't make sense to me."
"C'mon, just do it." "I'm not assertive at all. You do it." "Show some agression."
"Are you ever going to doubt yourself being attractive again now?" "It was a bit of a self-esteem boost." "Mm, for me too."
"It's a new kind of euphoria, isn't it?"
"I haven't shaved in a few days, so this is normally a lot smoother. It's a little high maintenance." "I guess little to no facial hair is one of the bonuses to being a girl." "Yeah, but you girls have to do your legs all the time." "That's true." ... "How often do you do it?" "Do I what?" "Shave your legs. In, like, a week." "Oh. Uh... I vary, I guess..."
"Oh, the door..." "It's okay, Robbie's parents like to watch. ... I was kidding." "I know, but that was still really creepy."
"I like being here with you." "Me too. I assumed, though. Otherwise, the circumstance here would be unlikely."
"Well, this is inconvenient."
V-b.
march eighteenth
"What are we?" "We are... getting to know each other. And I'm really enjoying it."
"If I tried to kiss you, do you think my sunglasses would get in the way?" "I don't think it'd be too much of an issue, no." "Okay. Well, that was just a hypothetical question."
twentieth--
"I asked you this the other day, but I think I should ask again now. What are we?" "Actually, I was going to wait until later tonight, but now that you're poutting me on the spot... I wanna be your maaann!" "Mhmm." "Was that a yes?" "Yes." "Yesss!" "Yay." "Yay."
"Now that we're exclusive, you're going to have to make the first move some time." "I did earlier." "No, you have to initiate it." "I have!" "What?" "Yes!" "I don't recall that. You're going to have to prove--" ... "Told you so." "You sure showed me."
V-c.
misc.
"Why are you staring at me?" "Just admiring."
VI-a.
"If you look at your grade right now, most of you will see that you're probably all failing."
"Wyoming is a big place of emptiness."
"House, House, House, Mall."
"Well, half my class is missing and I don't know where they are. And I could be sued, and that's not good."
"It will be a disaster. Don't do that."
"I cannot stand here and tell you the dynamics of a tree frog in the middle of Africa."
"Everyone's fascinated because it's so interesting."
VI-b.
inserting edward cullen into any equation makes sense.
y + rpattz = sparkes
x + edward cullen = gay vampire with an x
Hippoala--not like a Hyppogriff at all.
Hippos are fierce.
VII.
tristan taite--work in progress
the wind that blew my heart away
light on my shoulder
the freshmen
to be free
because of you
come home
the tide that left and never came back
give me heart
the ghost of you
undiscovered
how to save a life
my immortal
gone away
some you give away
song we sang away
gone so young
i know
view from heaven
everytime
I-a.
because you have a beauty unlike anyone i've ever known, inside and out. you're genuine and raw, even when you don't mean to be. because i care about you as much as you do me. because, previously, it was your happiness i yearned for you to find your way back to, and now it's outs i want us to breathe, together and individually.
I-b.
you really are incredible, and you deserve to hear it and believe it. not only that, but others deserve to see it too, if only as an inspiration for a reason to believe any of this is worth it. that there are others out there whose souls are like or unlike their own. to see a nearly drowning star in the night sky fight its way through to morning again and again, until those observers make the final decision to join in lighting the darkness. because no one has to rose or fall alone. no one should.
II.
i'm sorry i didn't call your back. i just... i don't know. i think i was a little afraid to talk to you.again. because as soon as i find myself falling short of my facade and showing vulnerability, i've already lost you. maybe that's why i broke down like i did. because i was open and you cared and i never knew you would, and it's too late. not because i don't trust you, but because i don't trust myself. i don't think i've ever been truly jealous or remorseful until now. but i just wanted to tell you i'm sorry. for all those times, especially in the past year, that i didn't answer and waited for the message to see what you had to say. that i let the both of us think it was you i didn't want to deal with when it was clearly myself. if you think cutting of ties with me is best, then i have no choice but to let you go. i love you with every inch of my being, and i always will. but the greatest act of love is sacrifice, and if what you truly want is for me to let go, i can't hold it against you.
III.
You know, or should know, that you are the light of my life.Your love has no comparison to anyone else in this world. You really are the light of my life. There is something sacred in my life and that is from our bond. I have never felt the love I feelfor you than anyone else in my life.Without your love I don't know who I am. You helped mold who I am and who I'll be. And I love every part of you for that.
IV.
every single time i'm high, i think of you and how you disapproved of it. i remember not confronting you on your lie that bothered me so much, and how badly i regret not telling you how i felt. i think about my favorite day with you. i day i wandered and you biked to meet me. it was the first time we fell asleep together. it was when i was truly sure our relationship wasn't a joke to you. i didn't fall in love then, but i knew i was capable of loving you, and you of me.
V-a.
march thirteenth.
""Now for my next trick, I'll need a volunteer! You there!" "Yes... By the way, I hate you, Robbie." "I'm going to ask you to move back and orth and to continue doing so." "Do I have to?" "Yes." ... "Why am I still doing this?!"
"Don't worry, I'm not a wifebeater. I mean, I'm wearing one, but I totally don't hit girls or anything like that."
"Is the twitching a nervous habit?" "I don't think so. I think it's from my aderol." "Oh. Well, maybe I'm being totally conceited here, but I was hoping it was because I was here." "Could be. You comfy?" "Perfect."
"Sorry about the twitching. This is just my first real high and my meds aren't cooperating." "No, no, I'm kind of liking the twitching. it makes things exciting."
"Are you nervous? wait, let me listen. ... I can't tell." "I don't know. But your heart is racing." "Well, I am lying here with an incredibly attractive girl in my arms." "That's a new one." "Being nervous?" "No, that I'm used to. I mean, not that I necessarily am. I mean, I dunno. Being called attractive." "Ohh. Used to hearing gorgeous, or..?" "Yeah, right." "Oh, oh. Let me guess. You usually get, like, sexy mama, or--" "No." "Nothing." "Nope." "See, that doesn't make sense to me."
"C'mon, just do it." "I'm not assertive at all. You do it." "Show some agression."
"Are you ever going to doubt yourself being attractive again now?" "It was a bit of a self-esteem boost." "Mm, for me too."
"It's a new kind of euphoria, isn't it?"
"I haven't shaved in a few days, so this is normally a lot smoother. It's a little high maintenance." "I guess little to no facial hair is one of the bonuses to being a girl." "Yeah, but you girls have to do your legs all the time." "That's true." ... "How often do you do it?" "Do I what?" "Shave your legs. In, like, a week." "Oh. Uh... I vary, I guess..."
"Oh, the door..." "It's okay, Robbie's parents like to watch. ... I was kidding." "I know, but that was still really creepy."
"I like being here with you." "Me too. I assumed, though. Otherwise, the circumstance here would be unlikely."
"Well, this is inconvenient."
V-b.
march eighteenth
"What are we?" "We are... getting to know each other. And I'm really enjoying it."
"If I tried to kiss you, do you think my sunglasses would get in the way?" "I don't think it'd be too much of an issue, no." "Okay. Well, that was just a hypothetical question."
twentieth--
"I asked you this the other day, but I think I should ask again now. What are we?" "Actually, I was going to wait until later tonight, but now that you're poutting me on the spot... I wanna be your maaann!" "Mhmm." "Was that a yes?" "Yes." "Yesss!" "Yay." "Yay."
"Now that we're exclusive, you're going to have to make the first move some time." "I did earlier." "No, you have to initiate it." "I have!" "What?" "Yes!" "I don't recall that. You're going to have to prove--" ... "Told you so." "You sure showed me."
V-c.
misc.
"Why are you staring at me?" "Just admiring."
VI-a.
"If you look at your grade right now, most of you will see that you're probably all failing."
"Wyoming is a big place of emptiness."
"House, House, House, Mall."
"Well, half my class is missing and I don't know where they are. And I could be sued, and that's not good."
"It will be a disaster. Don't do that."
"I cannot stand here and tell you the dynamics of a tree frog in the middle of Africa."
"Everyone's fascinated because it's so interesting."
VI-b.
inserting edward cullen into any equation makes sense.
y + rpattz = sparkes
x + edward cullen = gay vampire with an x
Hippoala--not like a Hyppogriff at all.
Hippos are fierce.
VII.
tristan taite--work in progress
the wind that blew my heart away
light on my shoulder
the freshmen
to be free
because of you
come home
the tide that left and never came back
give me heart
the ghost of you
undiscovered
how to save a life
my immortal
gone away
some you give away
song we sang away
gone so young
i know
view from heaven
everytime