Hallo-whine.
I'm so excited for halloween-- I have no idea what we're going to end up doing, but I'm hoping it will be fun. I want to go to a huge costume house party, like the one in casper (haha!). John still hasn't planned his costume yet, which is sort of annoying. I keep telling him how excited i am and how much I like halloween, but i'm afraid we're going to have a repeat of last year (I was the most amazing peggy bundy for halloween, and he was a less than desirable Al--- who didn't come to pick me up until around 11 after all of my friends had left without me. Nice.
I went to bed with a huge knot in my stomach last night. I feel really confused. I feel like I'm not cut out to hang with this life style of his. Long hours, unusual schedules, and like zero free time. I miss being able to snuggle and watch a movie with someone without fucking 40 people calling/texting/needing them. I miss going on dates, having conversations that didn't start out with- "so hows the movie going". It's getting really old, really fast.
Maybe I'd feel less bummed if I had some good girlfriends to hang out with. Is it just me or are all the girls in hollywood bananas? I am dying for some normal female friendship. I want to get coffee and a cookie and sit around bullshitting with someone who can hold a semi-interesting conversation that doesn't involve the movie business, drinking, the dumb dude you're 'sort of' seeing etc etc etc.
I swear if left to my own devices i would live in a studio apartment and just read books/smokepot/and do homework by myself. I'm like a cynical cat lady and i'm only (almost)23.
I think i just need to slow dance with devon sawa, that would make me feel better...
happy almost halloweener. <3
I went to bed with a huge knot in my stomach last night. I feel really confused. I feel like I'm not cut out to hang with this life style of his. Long hours, unusual schedules, and like zero free time. I miss being able to snuggle and watch a movie with someone without fucking 40 people calling/texting/needing them. I miss going on dates, having conversations that didn't start out with- "so hows the movie going". It's getting really old, really fast.
Maybe I'd feel less bummed if I had some good girlfriends to hang out with. Is it just me or are all the girls in hollywood bananas? I am dying for some normal female friendship. I want to get coffee and a cookie and sit around bullshitting with someone who can hold a semi-interesting conversation that doesn't involve the movie business, drinking, the dumb dude you're 'sort of' seeing etc etc etc.
I swear if left to my own devices i would live in a studio apartment and just read books/smokepot/and do homework by myself. I'm like a cynical cat lady and i'm only (almost)23.
I think i just need to slow dance with devon sawa, that would make me feel better...
happy almost halloweener. <3