Honesty
My mom died in November, she was the mom I knew my whole life...I was adopted. Then I found my birthmother...and a month and a half ago, she died too. I keep a good face on for everyone, and I will still do it. But inside, I am really scared. I can't handle losing anyone else close to me...and yet there is sickness looming in my family.
I need to be strong for people, especially my girls (Julie, Jenna, & Kimmie) and my boy...but what happens if I lose anyone else? I am VERY afraid that I will fall apart. I am hanging on by a thread in the face of all this death. When I'm alone, it comes out hard.
You needed to know this I guess.
PS- Update/1:00pm: I can't believe it. After I posted this entry this morning, I just found out that my friend Betty died last night. I am just floored.
I need to be strong for people, especially my girls (Julie, Jenna, & Kimmie) and my boy...but what happens if I lose anyone else? I am VERY afraid that I will fall apart. I am hanging on by a thread in the face of all this death. When I'm alone, it comes out hard.
You needed to know this I guess.
PS- Update/1:00pm: I can't believe it. After I posted this entry this morning, I just found out that my friend Betty died last night. I am just floored.