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since i have ben takeing psychology i am understanding alot. my mom is behavioral psychodeic, and not humanistic.
she says she wants to try but because of her ignorancy she she goes back on the words that she says , which is try.
I am doing all a parent wants college and i have a job offer in remax receptionist and all she puts on me is my past. if every1 is judged by the their past than there would be no definance in change, or learning a lesson, i cant really explain it but all, i know is that i am no matter what i have someone that loves me and stood by me through all the tragiditys and i owe my life to john, the only one i can truley talk to and he understands and feels my pain and tells me when i am wrong when i am wrong not like others who just think since i dont do thing in their way its wrong not looking at situtations in many perspetive. thats why i respect and love john not only as my friend or boyfriend a a person wh fuckn knows whats up, hes a god sent friend and lover.
But, have to go back to psy. research .....gay
waiting for hubby to get back from hollywood with ali, i really didnt want to tell him how broken hearted i am right now , because the paswt coule days hes truley sheltered me from the dramatic depression, i live with.
all i will end this entry with is that i knew it, but i let my gaurd down and left with the same broken home, inside the walls that scream,
People see the fact that i do drugs and what society has taught them they think that it is bad but break it down use Hippocrates theory he was a philosopher that broke down the problem and why a person does what they did honestly if they put themselves in my position, really put them self in my childhood, i think that they might have some understandment.
just maybe
just maybe
thank you baby for understanding
i love you
i do admit that i need you to talk to right now but your with ali i am not going to ruin your night with problems that cant be solved. you know its still going to be there so i will wait, the past nights have been amazeing thank you. Dont worry
i am a big girl dealt with this formore than halr my life whats acouple more months.
always remeber that i love u and that when i am with you i am happy and in love
kelly clarkson: you found me
my song to you
she says she wants to try but because of her ignorancy she she goes back on the words that she says , which is try.
I am doing all a parent wants college and i have a job offer in remax receptionist and all she puts on me is my past. if every1 is judged by the their past than there would be no definance in change, or learning a lesson, i cant really explain it but all, i know is that i am no matter what i have someone that loves me and stood by me through all the tragiditys and i owe my life to john, the only one i can truley talk to and he understands and feels my pain and tells me when i am wrong when i am wrong not like others who just think since i dont do thing in their way its wrong not looking at situtations in many perspetive. thats why i respect and love john not only as my friend or boyfriend a a person wh fuckn knows whats up, hes a god sent friend and lover.
But, have to go back to psy. research .....gay
waiting for hubby to get back from hollywood with ali, i really didnt want to tell him how broken hearted i am right now , because the paswt coule days hes truley sheltered me from the dramatic depression, i live with.
all i will end this entry with is that i knew it, but i let my gaurd down and left with the same broken home, inside the walls that scream,
People see the fact that i do drugs and what society has taught them they think that it is bad but break it down use Hippocrates theory he was a philosopher that broke down the problem and why a person does what they did honestly if they put themselves in my position, really put them self in my childhood, i think that they might have some understandment.
just maybe
just maybe
thank you baby for understanding
i love you
i do admit that i need you to talk to right now but your with ali i am not going to ruin your night with problems that cant be solved. you know its still going to be there so i will wait, the past nights have been amazeing thank you. Dont worry
i am a big girl dealt with this formore than halr my life whats acouple more months.
always remeber that i love u and that when i am with you i am happy and in love
kelly clarkson: you found me
my song to you