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I just want something to last, I'm so tired of these let downs. Why couldn't it be? I just don't understand. Your happiness is fleeting, just like my hopes and dreams. Just handed me another bone, and yet it's taken away from me. I didn't want to let go, and I can't think of anything else. It's hopeless, I know. I'm pathetic, always waiting just to get word of you. Waiting for phone calls to come, but knowing that the hurt will be deeper when they finally stop. Try to pry myself away, but it just isn't working. I can't take my mind off of you. Too long have you been my fix, I don't know if I can rid that so soon.. but I've got to.
I just want true love, something that will be returned without fading away. Something that won't stop, or shift, or change shape. Shapeshifter love, let's hope that's in the past. I don't need false perceptions and fake feelings. So fleeting is one's happiness, never thinking of the good. It just doesn't make sense. No sense at all. How can you fool yourself for so long? I wish I could see through all the fake smiles and hidden motives. I've always been bad at that. I trust too easily, in people obviously not worthy of that kind of trust. People don't take into consideration feelings, just see the power that they have.
But I shouldn't dwell in the past, as I so often do. But then again, how can I learn? But if I listened to what I've learned so far from my experiences, I'll grow up to be cold hearted and alone. However hard it is to move on, it's a necessity. People have regrets in life, maybe letting me go will turn to be one. Or maybe it will be a blessing. Who knows? Who cares? Sadly, I do. Everyone wants to be loved, wanted, heck, needed. No one likes the feeling that they aren't good enough. And well, I'm just not good enough. I might as well get used to the feeling, seeing as it's going to take time to rid.
I just want true love, something that will be returned without fading away. Something that won't stop, or shift, or change shape. Shapeshifter love, let's hope that's in the past. I don't need false perceptions and fake feelings. So fleeting is one's happiness, never thinking of the good. It just doesn't make sense. No sense at all. How can you fool yourself for so long? I wish I could see through all the fake smiles and hidden motives. I've always been bad at that. I trust too easily, in people obviously not worthy of that kind of trust. People don't take into consideration feelings, just see the power that they have.
But I shouldn't dwell in the past, as I so often do. But then again, how can I learn? But if I listened to what I've learned so far from my experiences, I'll grow up to be cold hearted and alone. However hard it is to move on, it's a necessity. People have regrets in life, maybe letting me go will turn to be one. Or maybe it will be a blessing. Who knows? Who cares? Sadly, I do. Everyone wants to be loved, wanted, heck, needed. No one likes the feeling that they aren't good enough. And well, I'm just not good enough. I might as well get used to the feeling, seeing as it's going to take time to rid.