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Hello everybody! I am currently sitting in my art teachers garage using her sons' computers....yes they all have a computer including the random student who sleeps over here during the week....hmmmm...Alright I guess I should enlighten you all over what has occurred the past month or so....sit around kiddies this is an evil tale....
Okay, so first things first, everyone already knows Connie(<---biological mother) hates me, but in the past weeks this hatred has increased. So when Doug wasn't working she was made and pissy and taking shit out on me...at school my deadline for Eng Composition tutiton was counting down and becoming needed, I was the only person in said class that hadn't it yet...I began to try to communicate with Connie about these matters and she became angry with me...she then began to ignore me...I was trying to stay calm, but it wasn't working and she still igmored me..so I got so mad because I was getting ragged on my counselor to pay that and I was beginning to stress out so bad that I couldn't sleep...so I kept trying to talk to that woman...oh sorry man...and she still ignored me, then I lost I started to yell and then I started to curse her out, she didn't ignore that...dammit (excuse the cursing). Anyway, that made her mad. So from then on I just couldn't stand to be around her, vice versa with her around me. So anyway, her and Doug make-up I guess because he's working now. So within a day, my mom has called her entire family and told them about my little outburst, my grandmother suggested that she kicked me out right then, and my grandfather and his girlfriend tried to talk to me about how if I loved her I would not have curse at her, I would held in my emotions and be mad in my room alone. So now, I am even angrier because I am being treated like a delinquent for letting my emotions get the best of me, and my tuiton still has not been paid for. My drama teacher, Mrs. Ford, saw me one day at school and said that I didn't look to good, and I told that I was stressed out. She asked if I paid my tuiton yet, and I told her no, that my step-father wasn't working and that my mother has been paying all of the bills and we can't afford it right now; so she went to talk to the school counselor and they gave me a school scholarship for my tuiton and someone paid for my 70$ deposit for senior stuff (announcements and cap&gown), I think it was Mrs. Ford. Anyway, I was very relieved and very gratiful to have been given that and I told Connie and she seemed glad I guess. Then Tuesday came around. Now, I had a hair appointment with Ammie's dad to cut my hair, but the time that was open for him was 10 in the morning. So I was going to have to miss school, now I didn't mention when the time was to Connie because I knew she would freak out but she had no idea that that was my intention. So then I called her after my hair was finished to ask her something and she started freaking out, now I did tell Doug where I was going to be, and she started accusing me of lying. I didn't lie though, but I just took it and ignored her rants. The other day I pulled a ladder and was trying to get on the roof, so when my attempts failed I left the ladder next the side of the house. Well in past months I had been locked in my bedroom because of broken door knob, so my screens from my windows had not been put back and one was lying next to said ladder. Well, a Wednesday(or Thursday) rolls around and I am sleeping after my stressful day at school. And my mother comes huffing puffing into the house and rushes down the hall and bangs on my door with her fists of fury and I say "GO away I don't want to deal with you right now, let me sleep." You see in all of this time I very bitter because of the recent accusations and past yelling and taking things out on me and just for god's sake that woman, so in this time I haven't been trying to patch things up or make things worse I just wouldn't take a bunch of crap from her anymore. So banging on the door and then she starts accusing me of sneaking out of the house, I told her that if I wanted to leave I would take my keys and walk out the door in front of her. I wasn't scared of her seeing me. Then she began mocking me saying that I was all "gothic" and "tough" I asked her what she was talking about then she called me a wannabe and started to say the same things over again and I told her to leave because she was a moron. After that she ran off to my grandmother's house to complain some more, and I went into the livingroom to watch tv, when Shelby(the echo of the beast) began to rag on me too. She eventually said that I was an outcast of this family and no one really liked me and that mom has always loved her more and that she hated me because I was such a bad kid because I can't keep a job and I went out with Pablo, and so on....I told her to go and brush her teeth...by the way, Doug was right there and let her say that stuff to me...I was sad:( ANYWAY, yesterday morning mom tried to give me the other ten dollars that I had asked for, for the rest of my deposit, but on account of the things that had happened when I asked I said no. Then, I walked into their bathroom to brush my teeth and put make-up on, now I was using her make-up because mine was all gone because when I bought it she used it until she bought some new make-up, after I was all out. So I wouldn't give her the said make-up and she started to flip out! She went postal, she said that I can't use her stuff because I never let anyone use my stuff and I never do anything around the house and blah blah blah! I locked her out of the bathroom and used it anyway. She then into my room and tore it apart, it was already messy so now I can make it seem like she messed it up hahahahaha...., then I went to use my make-up in the bathroom and she went in my room took my keys and started to pound on my door to get my phone, Doug comes up and says that I had better give it to her because I got myself into this mess and that I pretty much deserve it. So bye-bye phone. Then mom started yelling, I forget what was said adn then she randomly said that she wanted me out of the house and to go and find another place to live, because wanted to get rid of me and my father won't have me...so after she finally left, I was supposed to walk to school about 6 miles away, Doug didn't offer me a ride. So, I left and by the time I reached the driveway I caught the bus and rode that to schoool! When I got there I told Leslie(Mrs.Hunter(art)) about the issue and she offered to let me stay here. So, yeah I am here with one outfit, no make-up or deodorant, one pair of pajama pants, no coat, no phone, no car, but I am happier than I have been in a really long time. I am so happy to be out of there. This house is so comfortable and the environment is so nice. There are all of these people, especially teachers, that areasking if I am okay and that they love me, then I have all of my friends helping me out and being so supportive, and I have Geoff and his family who has been so helpful. Thank-you everyone, I am really really grateful to have all of this support, I really appreciate it! Anyway, I am going to try and find a job in town, so that I can buy my car back from my grandfather then it will be in my name and no one else's! It was already in my name but my grandfather told Connie to take it out of mine and move it to hers and take the keys, that is what she did. So now to figure out where to work and ho wto get more clothes and supplies from my house....hmm....I shall probably go over there after school some day....hmmmm....YEAH! Well thanks again everyone, sorry that this is soooooooooooooo long but I havene't posted since the summer and I just wanted to explain that the situation...bye bye
Thanks again
-Jessica
I LOVE YOU GEOFF!
Okay, so first things first, everyone already knows Connie(<---biological mother) hates me, but in the past weeks this hatred has increased. So when Doug wasn't working she was made and pissy and taking shit out on me...at school my deadline for Eng Composition tutiton was counting down and becoming needed, I was the only person in said class that hadn't it yet...I began to try to communicate with Connie about these matters and she became angry with me...she then began to ignore me...I was trying to stay calm, but it wasn't working and she still igmored me..so I got so mad because I was getting ragged on my counselor to pay that and I was beginning to stress out so bad that I couldn't sleep...so I kept trying to talk to that woman...oh sorry man...and she still ignored me, then I lost I started to yell and then I started to curse her out, she didn't ignore that...dammit (excuse the cursing). Anyway, that made her mad. So from then on I just couldn't stand to be around her, vice versa with her around me. So anyway, her and Doug make-up I guess because he's working now. So within a day, my mom has called her entire family and told them about my little outburst, my grandmother suggested that she kicked me out right then, and my grandfather and his girlfriend tried to talk to me about how if I loved her I would not have curse at her, I would held in my emotions and be mad in my room alone. So now, I am even angrier because I am being treated like a delinquent for letting my emotions get the best of me, and my tuiton still has not been paid for. My drama teacher, Mrs. Ford, saw me one day at school and said that I didn't look to good, and I told that I was stressed out. She asked if I paid my tuiton yet, and I told her no, that my step-father wasn't working and that my mother has been paying all of the bills and we can't afford it right now; so she went to talk to the school counselor and they gave me a school scholarship for my tuiton and someone paid for my 70$ deposit for senior stuff (announcements and cap&gown), I think it was Mrs. Ford. Anyway, I was very relieved and very gratiful to have been given that and I told Connie and she seemed glad I guess. Then Tuesday came around. Now, I had a hair appointment with Ammie's dad to cut my hair, but the time that was open for him was 10 in the morning. So I was going to have to miss school, now I didn't mention when the time was to Connie because I knew she would freak out but she had no idea that that was my intention. So then I called her after my hair was finished to ask her something and she started freaking out, now I did tell Doug where I was going to be, and she started accusing me of lying. I didn't lie though, but I just took it and ignored her rants. The other day I pulled a ladder and was trying to get on the roof, so when my attempts failed I left the ladder next the side of the house. Well in past months I had been locked in my bedroom because of broken door knob, so my screens from my windows had not been put back and one was lying next to said ladder. Well, a Wednesday(or Thursday) rolls around and I am sleeping after my stressful day at school. And my mother comes huffing puffing into the house and rushes down the hall and bangs on my door with her fists of fury and I say "GO away I don't want to deal with you right now, let me sleep." You see in all of this time I very bitter because of the recent accusations and past yelling and taking things out on me and just for god's sake that woman, so in this time I haven't been trying to patch things up or make things worse I just wouldn't take a bunch of crap from her anymore. So banging on the door and then she starts accusing me of sneaking out of the house, I told her that if I wanted to leave I would take my keys and walk out the door in front of her. I wasn't scared of her seeing me. Then she began mocking me saying that I was all "gothic" and "tough" I asked her what she was talking about then she called me a wannabe and started to say the same things over again and I told her to leave because she was a moron. After that she ran off to my grandmother's house to complain some more, and I went into the livingroom to watch tv, when Shelby(the echo of the beast) began to rag on me too. She eventually said that I was an outcast of this family and no one really liked me and that mom has always loved her more and that she hated me because I was such a bad kid because I can't keep a job and I went out with Pablo, and so on....I told her to go and brush her teeth...by the way, Doug was right there and let her say that stuff to me...I was sad:( ANYWAY, yesterday morning mom tried to give me the other ten dollars that I had asked for, for the rest of my deposit, but on account of the things that had happened when I asked I said no. Then, I walked into their bathroom to brush my teeth and put make-up on, now I was using her make-up because mine was all gone because when I bought it she used it until she bought some new make-up, after I was all out. So I wouldn't give her the said make-up and she started to flip out! She went postal, she said that I can't use her stuff because I never let anyone use my stuff and I never do anything around the house and blah blah blah! I locked her out of the bathroom and used it anyway. She then into my room and tore it apart, it was already messy so now I can make it seem like she messed it up hahahahaha...., then I went to use my make-up in the bathroom and she went in my room took my keys and started to pound on my door to get my phone, Doug comes up and says that I had better give it to her because I got myself into this mess and that I pretty much deserve it. So bye-bye phone. Then mom started yelling, I forget what was said adn then she randomly said that she wanted me out of the house and to go and find another place to live, because wanted to get rid of me and my father won't have me...so after she finally left, I was supposed to walk to school about 6 miles away, Doug didn't offer me a ride. So, I left and by the time I reached the driveway I caught the bus and rode that to schoool! When I got there I told Leslie(Mrs.Hunter(art)) about the issue and she offered to let me stay here. So, yeah I am here with one outfit, no make-up or deodorant, one pair of pajama pants, no coat, no phone, no car, but I am happier than I have been in a really long time. I am so happy to be out of there. This house is so comfortable and the environment is so nice. There are all of these people, especially teachers, that areasking if I am okay and that they love me, then I have all of my friends helping me out and being so supportive, and I have Geoff and his family who has been so helpful. Thank-you everyone, I am really really grateful to have all of this support, I really appreciate it! Anyway, I am going to try and find a job in town, so that I can buy my car back from my grandfather then it will be in my name and no one else's! It was already in my name but my grandfather told Connie to take it out of mine and move it to hers and take the keys, that is what she did. So now to figure out where to work and ho wto get more clothes and supplies from my house....hmm....I shall probably go over there after school some day....hmmmm....YEAH! Well thanks again everyone, sorry that this is soooooooooooooo long but I havene't posted since the summer and I just wanted to explain that the situation...bye bye
Thanks again
-Jessica
I LOVE YOU GEOFF!