i took a cab there to hold him, i took a plane there to feel what he felt.

[dearest_boy]

To whom it may concern,

(I say this because I rarely write on this thing
and not that many people read it anyways)

As of yesterday the mood had changed for me.
-I had an emotional breakdown about absolutely everything!
-Came out of it with a decision to take a year off.
-I will live in houston, work, make art, and maybe travel a bit.
-I will finally own a car beginning this summer.
-I am the proud owner of a vintage, white and blue emerson Big-Big Portable Phonograph, record Player
which i got on ebay last night. I was quite proud of myself for I outbid my fellow bidders by $1:00 in the
last 17 seconds of the auction. It was quite thrilling if i do say so myself and it wasn't just due
to the plentiful amounts of St. Pattys day beer in me.
- I have picked up smoking once again.
- I'm more relaxed about everything now and I know its because now I am sure that
I don't have to come back here next year.
I'm a little scared, i'll admit, but at the same time very exited.
I just need to get away from everything I've been dealing with this year.
I'm tired of it.
Its a good decision.
It will be good for me.

later.