a little typsay

[dearest_boy]

its sad to realize
that the person you thought you knew
is sudenly a stranger to you.

It's a lesson that will stick by me for the rest of my life
and despite the fact that I'm fucking drunk at the moment
I am seriouse.

i never thought it would end like this.
I seriousely belived the words that came out of
your mouth about the future and how we would
be friends for ever.
stupid me.

I put my pride away and was the first to call you
but I cant lower my self and put my life on hold, waiting for you to
maybe consider calling me.

my mind just can't conceive that our friendship would go to ruins over
a drunk fight. I seriously thought i meant more than that to you.

I geuss thats probably my fault for beleiving you when you said you
truely cared about our freindship.

let me tell you something:

a true friendship is not fronted by shit like that.
it's called maturity.
If you have a problem you talk about
it and see things through.
thats how a relationship grows.
i tried.
you know
I did.

by the looks of it
it seems like your done
and if thats waht you feel you need
right now then by all means
do so.

but I hope you havent given up yet.
I miss you.

Im not one to hold shit against the
people i care about so know that.

Im her till the 26th of august
after that, don't bother.
it would hurt too much.