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[deardiaryloveme]

its summer. i want to go back to school, because when i don't i go into my little hermit shell which is my room and sit there all of my days. it would be great to just start senior year now and be done earlier. my three dance classes start tuesday i'm particularly enthused for modern, sounds wispy i'm going to need large tie-dyed sleeves. All i've been doing is laying and thinking about the philosophy of the universe. I hold strong to my belief that we are in God's bubble and the stars are just little holes that the people in heaven can watch us from. And if that sounds immature learn about evolution. I also don't believe in time. How can we put a label on nothing. It doesn't move. It's a simple existance and we build our lives around a system of measurement to measure something we really creatd. I think its sad that we keep advancing in fields we created and i would rather live in a cave and eat bugs like the good old days. not my good old days, but i think a long time ago that's probably what went down. i went to the beach today. I went boogie boarding because i have no money for a surfboard and the ocean is my favorite aspect of natural life. there was this rather large speciman of a biker who told calley she had pretty hair in a large creepy sweaty voice. I do a good impression. I saw a lot of marines. I dont like them. They are loud and you can tell they only go for the free acess to stare at females. creeps. so i'm the only one now in my family wihtout a boyfriend. it sucks. everyone goes on dates and i hang out with mothercarol and watch movies on tv. not that i necessarily want a boyfriend but i wouldn't mind having one who is intelligent and classy but it seems like that is impossible to find these days. i feel so dumb when i don't do anything useful wtih my time.

if you want to hang out with me you totally can. i'm always free.