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so i can't say i'm freaking out? but i can't say i'm entirely sane right now either. all of this is so fucking uncertain, so exhausting, so upsetting that i don't feel like i have possibilities anymore, i feel like i have dead ends.
its just hitting me that i have no idea what i'm doing with the next four years of my life. it's hitting me that i hate paperwork enough to want to give up on finding a way out of all this. it's hitting me that i'm getting REALLY SICK of interlochen and not being able to TYPE in a fucking COMPUTER LAB without two people DRY HUMPING behind me, no matter how much i love two said people. i just feel like a fucking time bomb, and i dont want to be around anyone or doing anything and i just want to wake up tommorow and have this all figured out so i can go back to being myself. being in flux for literally six months cannot be healthy.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHi just want to run away to spain.
its just hitting me that i have no idea what i'm doing with the next four years of my life. it's hitting me that i hate paperwork enough to want to give up on finding a way out of all this. it's hitting me that i'm getting REALLY SICK of interlochen and not being able to TYPE in a fucking COMPUTER LAB without two people DRY HUMPING behind me, no matter how much i love two said people. i just feel like a fucking time bomb, and i dont want to be around anyone or doing anything and i just want to wake up tommorow and have this all figured out so i can go back to being myself. being in flux for literally six months cannot be healthy.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHi just want to run away to spain.