change.
“Changes fill my time, but baby that’s alright with me, in the midst I think of you, and how we used to be”
It’s not fair to say that I wasted time with him; I didn’t. I did however drag something that should have ended when it was over. I wouldn’t dare use the term waste on him. I wasted nothing on him. I gave him my heart, my whole heart, and after I broke his, he took all the time in the world to crush mine. We fought, finally, and we finally told each other, straight up, no holding back, exactly what was on our minds. Granted we cant remember everything that was said, it showed me that I need to remove him from my life. Its weird to say that, seeing as he has BEEN my life for so long, the source of my emotional ups and downs, everything. But now, I’m without him, for now at least; but I hope it goes like this for a while. I like that I have a boyfriend. It’s the most secure part of my life; which makes everything else fall into place. I’m still busy and stressed and tired, but there’s nothing like that random text he’ll send me with Kelly Logue’s lyrics. (thanks kell…) this year is definitely different than all the others; its easier, and quieter, far less dramatic, and I don’t find myself at school as much. I’ve missed so many days and parts of days, I’m surprised I’m still a student. Changes are a good thing.
It’s not fair to say that I wasted time with him; I didn’t. I did however drag something that should have ended when it was over. I wouldn’t dare use the term waste on him. I wasted nothing on him. I gave him my heart, my whole heart, and after I broke his, he took all the time in the world to crush mine. We fought, finally, and we finally told each other, straight up, no holding back, exactly what was on our minds. Granted we cant remember everything that was said, it showed me that I need to remove him from my life. Its weird to say that, seeing as he has BEEN my life for so long, the source of my emotional ups and downs, everything. But now, I’m without him, for now at least; but I hope it goes like this for a while. I like that I have a boyfriend. It’s the most secure part of my life; which makes everything else fall into place. I’m still busy and stressed and tired, but there’s nothing like that random text he’ll send me with Kelly Logue’s lyrics. (thanks kell…) this year is definitely different than all the others; its easier, and quieter, far less dramatic, and I don’t find myself at school as much. I’ve missed so many days and parts of days, I’m surprised I’m still a student. Changes are a good thing.