i miss you want you, need you now.
I love the emptiness of my house, when I come home from school and no one is home, it makes me want to yell and dance and sing just because I can, but usually I take a nap. I’ll watch my show, take a nap and work on homework in complete silence, and I love it. Today was different though, he came over and once he did, the house was lit again. I have green eyes, I’m told they’re blue, but when I look at his it just confirms that HE has blue eyes, and mine are in fact green. Beautiful eyes he has, the most beautiful I’ve ever seen. I get lost in them sometimes. We don’t fit, when we lay together my legs stop long before his and his arms could wrap around me easily. We watch whatever stupid reality show is on and eat the lollipops I got from the dry cleaner, blue for him, and pink for me. I like that he’s bigger than me, I feel safe; like I could just curl up next to him and all the wrong in my life would be right. We smile like little kids and then kiss, which is a clear signifier that we are not kids. I don’t remember when it wasn’t awkward hanging out with boys alone, but I do love it, I’m finally past the awkward stage in my life and he gets to be the one I’m comfortable with. My favorite thing about having interest in someone is holding hands; I love holding hands and when we walk he plays with my hands which are much smaller than his, and it makes me happy; it’s the only tasteful form of PDA in my opinion. I’m ok with not knowing where we stand, all I know is I can’t fall asleep because I just keep thinking about him, and how excited I am to see him in the morning, and when he kisses me, I swear the world stops, so for now, I LOVE where I am, and that’s all that matters.