It's been a long time
Dear you,
When we first met, you told me all the things i wanted to hear but i was hesitant to trust given your popularity and your mysterious nature. Every girl in the room wanted to be close to you and you locked in on me. I never understood why. I wasn't the type to fawn over you, I wasn't the tall thin model type that cared about the designer bags and shoes...I'm short and wear jeans n chucks...lol
When you looked at me, there was this smoldering heat like you could devour me and that voice ugh, it still makes me melt... so smooth and deep like it touches my soul.... When I started to fall for you it was honestly the worst feeling...those butterflies people talk about made me sick to my stomach and before I knew it the words came spewing out and I couldn't stop it. You thought it was cute how nervous I was, but you knew exactly what you wanted and just how to get it.
You always told me our love was private and not for anyone else. Hello red flags... I didn't trust that. My love was too big not to share....not to make a home and a life together.....so eventually, I moved on. I wanted family. Someone to come home to, a partner in all things.
You were my safe space and remained so all this time. When my life fell apart you were there. You said "I'll always have love for you" but what I didn't know was you still loved me the way you always had. You waited for me through my marriage and my kids and my divorce. And when life got the best of me, you were there, like you always had been.
All these years later...a lifetime it seems... I'm still in love with you, and I'm sorry for all the years in between. Had it been more clear...had i said the things i needed to say back then... had you said then "I've loved you since the moment we met" what could have been...
You still melt me. That look in your eyes when you're coming to claim what's yours... the heat and desire...
I've missed this.
When we first met, you told me all the things i wanted to hear but i was hesitant to trust given your popularity and your mysterious nature. Every girl in the room wanted to be close to you and you locked in on me. I never understood why. I wasn't the type to fawn over you, I wasn't the tall thin model type that cared about the designer bags and shoes...I'm short and wear jeans n chucks...lol
When you looked at me, there was this smoldering heat like you could devour me and that voice ugh, it still makes me melt... so smooth and deep like it touches my soul.... When I started to fall for you it was honestly the worst feeling...those butterflies people talk about made me sick to my stomach and before I knew it the words came spewing out and I couldn't stop it. You thought it was cute how nervous I was, but you knew exactly what you wanted and just how to get it.
You always told me our love was private and not for anyone else. Hello red flags... I didn't trust that. My love was too big not to share....not to make a home and a life together.....so eventually, I moved on. I wanted family. Someone to come home to, a partner in all things.
You were my safe space and remained so all this time. When my life fell apart you were there. You said "I'll always have love for you" but what I didn't know was you still loved me the way you always had. You waited for me through my marriage and my kids and my divorce. And when life got the best of me, you were there, like you always had been.
All these years later...a lifetime it seems... I'm still in love with you, and I'm sorry for all the years in between. Had it been more clear...had i said the things i needed to say back then... had you said then "I've loved you since the moment we met" what could have been...
You still melt me. That look in your eyes when you're coming to claim what's yours... the heat and desire...
I've missed this.