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[dear_urnamehere]

i don't like anyone i used to know.

i don't like anything they say.
things that used to make me smile or laugh just make me want to shout or punch something.
i used to want to devote my life to novels and screenplays about you people.
muses and punks and kids and drunks.
but now... i just want you all to leave.
or you can stay here and burn or drown because i'm leaving soon anyways.

i am sad every time i see you write about some other girl and not once did you write about me.
i am mad every time i see you having a good time because i don't think you deserve it.
i am happy when bad things happen to you.
i am so happy when you are unhappy.
when all of you are unhappy.
with your shitty jobs.
and your shitty schools.
and your shitty weekends.
with your shitty booze.
i am happy.
i am alone.
and friendless.
i have sisters now. they are my brothers.
and i have a family.
i do not have friends.
i do not need them.
and i do not want them.
leave me alone.
stop talking so much.

i do not want to hear it.
and i don't think many other people want to either.