stop getting up for the letdown.

[dear_god_no]

yeah, the subject pretty much says it all.
i need to stop expecting things to get better.
that way i won't be disappointed.

today's topic: trust.
how do you know if you can trust someone?
i don't trust people and i get chewed out for "not being open".
so then i take a chance and trust people, and i get hurt.
no one is ever consistent;
they act one way with one person, another way with someone else.
how do you know which one is real?
are they lying to you, or the other person?
or are they just completely fake and lying to everyone?

just when i think i've got someone figured out...
just when i think i can honestly say
"i can trust this person to be there for me.
they're good, and honest, and mean it when they say they care about me."
and then that person goes and does something so totally out of character.
i don't know what to think or who to believe anymore.
and it sucks.

something's gotta give.