If only...

[dear_emily]

♥ i could stop eating.
♥ i could be cute.
♥ i could be thin.
♥ i could be liked.
♥ i had willpower.
♥ i wanted it bad enough.
♥ i had cute features.
♥ i wasn't fat.
♥ i was pretty.

then i think i'd be happy.

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i know this feeling may last; i don't know if i'm even thinking right. but i feel like being kind, compassionate, not caring. wait...i just lost it; the purpose of it.

hmm. i still don't know. whatever. but not caring just seems so much easier and calmer. i wish i had a flat stomach.

i wish i didn't have to cover up my fat.

i wish i didn't have to worry.