Lo siento, mis amigos...
Ok, so sorry for the last few entries. Ugh...I hate the breakouts before your period and the fat that's always there. It's like before I put on make-up, I seriously feel so ugly I could kill myself. And then I put it on and make myself up, presentable at least, and I feel fine. I get to get over little things!
My friend found out about cutting. It was way awkward. I tried to play it off. I guess she'd find out sooner or later. I just wish that...I didn't have to cut or starve myself. Really, that's what it all comes down to. I wish I didn't have to do all these things that hurt myself. But I hurt myself, and then I have to hurt myself for hurting myself...get it?! Ha. But whatever. It's my body. It's not like I'm hurting anyone else. And it feels good. It lets me feel.
Tonight was fun, because I felt pretty. :-D Anyway, I'll probably be doin' this again next month so see you all then!
Oh, and I still really like him. :-D Seriously, I can NOT get this boy out of my head! I just wish I knew what the signs were or if he even liked me. Gosh...I just want to be with him.
My friend found out about cutting. It was way awkward. I tried to play it off. I guess she'd find out sooner or later. I just wish that...I didn't have to cut or starve myself. Really, that's what it all comes down to. I wish I didn't have to do all these things that hurt myself. But I hurt myself, and then I have to hurt myself for hurting myself...get it?! Ha. But whatever. It's my body. It's not like I'm hurting anyone else. And it feels good. It lets me feel.
Tonight was fun, because I felt pretty. :-D Anyway, I'll probably be doin' this again next month so see you all then!
Oh, and I still really like him. :-D Seriously, I can NOT get this boy out of my head! I just wish I knew what the signs were or if he even liked me. Gosh...I just want to be with him.