I'm gonna sound arrogant, but I'm really not
I don't know where to start this entry, but things have been on my mind lately. I don't get why people don't like me. I mean, they don't tell me straight to my face they don't like me, but I can just tell. I'm a nice person, at least I try to be. I don't start things about people or say something I'll regret (at least 99% of the time). I want to get to know people, be friends with everyone, be there when someone needs a shoulder to lean on or an someone to listen to them. I feel like I approach people with open arms. I'm ready to take a friend in. But no one does that. Do I come off as too rude, too closed off from the world? I just want people...to like me, I guess.
*No one really has to comment to this. I was just trying to see if there was something inside of me that I didn't know about.
Another thing I found inside of myself is...well, about boys. I'm always scared I'm gonna end up like someone that I mentioned in my last entry. A lonely, old, fat woman. But I realized that since I obsess over E V E R Y boy that even talks to me - except for very few - that the one I don't obsess over is The One. And since I haven't found that one, I probably shouldn't be pushing away potential just-friends for the time being. Like, with my neighbors (and I don't know if I'm looking too deep into this, if it's just coincidental, or what). Well, for one thing, I come home and within a few moments after I walk in the door, they go out. Almost as if they don't want to pass me on their way down (like they wait for me to leave or come and they leave or come right after that). So I don't know. Everything can't be a coincidence...but what IS a coincidence?
So I just felt like writing. I'm not depressed or need uplifting or whathaveyou. I'm just trying to figure myself out here.
*No one really has to comment to this. I was just trying to see if there was something inside of me that I didn't know about.
Another thing I found inside of myself is...well, about boys. I'm always scared I'm gonna end up like someone that I mentioned in my last entry. A lonely, old, fat woman. But I realized that since I obsess over E V E R Y boy that even talks to me - except for very few - that the one I don't obsess over is The One. And since I haven't found that one, I probably shouldn't be pushing away potential just-friends for the time being. Like, with my neighbors (and I don't know if I'm looking too deep into this, if it's just coincidental, or what). Well, for one thing, I come home and within a few moments after I walk in the door, they go out. Almost as if they don't want to pass me on their way down (like they wait for me to leave or come and they leave or come right after that). So I don't know. Everything can't be a coincidence...but what IS a coincidence?
So I just felt like writing. I'm not depressed or need uplifting or whathaveyou. I'm just trying to figure myself out here.