Well, you could also try to bring your own lunch to work at first, something you would think of as not too fat, yet good enough for you not to feel like borrowing money to buy something else. Or you could spend the lunch break alone, with no one to offer you money to buy food. Or you could buy something you wouldn't feel so guilty to eat ; don't they sell salads or such at your workplace ? Salads are great, because they give you that 'filled stomach' sensation, but they're mostly water -granted that they're really salads, i.e. lettuce and vegetables for the most part, not drowned in mayo and such
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Lol, I don't know, but this is just so weird...do you not have a LJ and that's why you post anonymous...? I was just wondering. I think that yeah, not going the ana way would be nice and better for my health. But so would eating five servings of fruits of veggies a day AND exercising 30 minutes/day. But for that to happen, there would have to be at least 30 hours in a day. No, but the mental part of me is anorexic. I am always striving for perfection, there is always a better grade, I don't like offending anyone because that makes me feel superior - and I'm not, food is good but causes problems, I am not a good person - I always mess up friendships and such, and I need that one thing that makes me special/needed/powerful. I have the ana tendencies for sure. But then there's the rational part of me; I know I should eat health, exercise and whatnot. But it's like the two sides of my brain fight and can't come to a reasoning that works for *me*. And also, I have issues. I hang on to this comfortableness of identifying myself with ana.
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