Day 13 and I'm losing track

[dear_ebony_rose]

I'm losing track of what I'm doing. This whole Lent things has started to make me apathetic when it instead was supposed to help me be empathetic. I've been real good about sticking with it until I discovered he joys of soy shakes. My body has adjusted to less food surprisingly easily, however it is my mind hat is making this difficult. I keep trying to make excuses for things in which I can indulge. I am feeling disappointed in myself and think it's about time I refocus my attention on my intentions. I've begun to realize just how short-lived many of my resolutions or such things are. It only takes about a week and a half for me to tire of whatever new thing I'm trying to do. It depresses me to think about the lack of commitment and enthusiasm that I have. I need to find a way to focus my way of living unto a better way of life. I worry that if I do not that I soon will become apathetic and lethargic. I need a schedule, but I'm afraid that it will only last for a week or two.

Tonight will be a night of cleaning, purging ways, meditation, and refocusing my mind.
I hope it helps as much as I would like.