and all of this was all your fault..

[dear__ambellina]

flipping through my memories, boxed up like they're nothing. there's still evidence. i can remember a time when you were always around, and we had nothing better to do than this. it isn't a matter of who has to apoligize. we've gone past that. and i bet that she told you about every speck of dirt i ever threw on your name. failed to mention her role..so is it over? because now i'm wondering if i'm ready for that. and i bet i'm crazy..for looking back on life like this. so is it worth it, to live alone in a life you hate? and these memories and notes, they're not making this easy. i don't want to worry about it. i don't need to. what now?

i don't know how to explain it..but, for some reason i miss you..

who would have known i'd ever have to say that..oh well..

goodnight..