July topic: Better Than Me
Dear Nicole,
I was going to stick around and talk to you face to face, but the fact is it's easier this way. I'm not good at goodbyes. I'm not good at relationships. I'm not that guy. I'm never going to be that guy. All my life I've been focused on two things; watching out for Sammy and taking down the son of a bitch that killed my mother. It was a simple existence even if it wasn't easy. I was good at it. But Sammy isn't a kid anymore. He's got shit going on that I can't help him with. He's got Dad and Fred, and well I need to do what he did awhile back. I need to do things on my own for a bit.
I thought about asking you to come with me. You have to believe that packing up my things and heading out in the middle of the night only leaving you a letter isn't the way I wanted to end things. I'm not sure how you got to me, but you did. You were unlike anyone I'd ever met, and I'm grateful for the time you spent with me. I know, I know you're going to be spitting mad. You're going to call me a coward for leaving when you can't have your say. Maybe you're right. Maybe I am. I just know that I need to go. I can't risk you talking me out of it, or Sam guilt tripping me.
I have a lead on the demon and I'm going after him solo. I'm not coming back to Los Angeles. I've lost sight of my work because living the good life with you was so damn nice. But it's not the life meant for me. I'm not that guy. I never will be. The truth is, Nic, you deserve that guy. You deserve someone better than me.
Take care of yourself.
-Dean
Dear Dad and Sam,
I'm out. If you need anything turn to each other for awhile. I can't play buffer or referee. I've lost sight of my mission, and I've lost sight of myself. I need to do what you two have already done; spend some time on my own getting acquainted with myself. If something really big goes down, I'm sure I'll catch wind of it and be there to ride in and cover your back. Otherwise, I'll be in touch when I can.
-Dean
[ooc: This ties up the loose ends for my Dean Winchester. I'm pulling him from Fandom_muses and wanted to make sure whoever takes him up next has a clean slate. It's been a pleasure. <333 Nicole. Alec, listen to your mother.]
I was going to stick around and talk to you face to face, but the fact is it's easier this way. I'm not good at goodbyes. I'm not good at relationships. I'm not that guy. I'm never going to be that guy. All my life I've been focused on two things; watching out for Sammy and taking down the son of a bitch that killed my mother. It was a simple existence even if it wasn't easy. I was good at it. But Sammy isn't a kid anymore. He's got shit going on that I can't help him with. He's got Dad and Fred, and well I need to do what he did awhile back. I need to do things on my own for a bit.
I thought about asking you to come with me. You have to believe that packing up my things and heading out in the middle of the night only leaving you a letter isn't the way I wanted to end things. I'm not sure how you got to me, but you did. You were unlike anyone I'd ever met, and I'm grateful for the time you spent with me. I know, I know you're going to be spitting mad. You're going to call me a coward for leaving when you can't have your say. Maybe you're right. Maybe I am. I just know that I need to go. I can't risk you talking me out of it, or Sam guilt tripping me.
I have a lead on the demon and I'm going after him solo. I'm not coming back to Los Angeles. I've lost sight of my work because living the good life with you was so damn nice. But it's not the life meant for me. I'm not that guy. I never will be. The truth is, Nic, you deserve that guy. You deserve someone better than me.
Take care of yourself.
-Dean
Dear Dad and Sam,
I'm out. If you need anything turn to each other for awhile. I can't play buffer or referee. I've lost sight of my mission, and I've lost sight of myself. I need to do what you two have already done; spend some time on my own getting acquainted with myself. If something really big goes down, I'm sure I'll catch wind of it and be there to ride in and cover your back. Otherwise, I'll be in touch when I can.
-Dean
[ooc: This ties up the loose ends for my Dean Winchester. I'm pulling him from Fandom_muses and wanted to make sure whoever takes him up next has a clean slate. It's been a pleasure. <333 Nicole. Alec, listen to your mother.]