topic 39 jealousy
//locked up tight//
I've always been a little jealous of Sam. He's clearly Dad's favorite even if he will say otherwise. They are a lot alike and they get each other in a way I can't really get either of them. The thing I was really jealous of was that for a little while he had that taste of a normal life. He had the girlfriend and the friends, the routine and the school. He got to do things his own way. For a little while he was just Sam Winchester, college student, and that was something I was never going to be.
I was never going to be a college type. My grades were bad and I didn't give a shit about school. I couldn't focus on things like that. But there were times that I wondered what it was like to be away from the life we were raised in. I wondered what it was like to have a girlfriend and be in one city for more than a week. Then I would save someone and be reminded that petty jealousy aside, this was the life I wanted for myself. This is where I'm supposed to be.
I've always been a little jealous of Sam. He's clearly Dad's favorite even if he will say otherwise. They are a lot alike and they get each other in a way I can't really get either of them. The thing I was really jealous of was that for a little while he had that taste of a normal life. He had the girlfriend and the friends, the routine and the school. He got to do things his own way. For a little while he was just Sam Winchester, college student, and that was something I was never going to be.
I was never going to be a college type. My grades were bad and I didn't give a shit about school. I couldn't focus on things like that. But there were times that I wondered what it was like to be away from the life we were raised in. I wondered what it was like to have a girlfriend and be in one city for more than a week. Then I would save someone and be reminded that petty jealousy aside, this was the life I wanted for myself. This is where I'm supposed to be.