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Apr 23, 2004 12:20

I haven't written in here since everything happened. The things I usually write about seem so wrong. Hair? Break dancing? Paint brushes? My undying dislike of Quidditch? Yeah. -_ ( Read more... )

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lupercus April 23 2004, 23:24:48 UTC
God, I hate to see these words coming out of the mouth of a second generation.

I am so, so sorry for this.

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deanthomas April 23 2004, 23:58:07 UTC
It's not just words. I mean them.

I'm sorry too. I guess we all are. No time to wallow around in that, though.

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lupercus April 24 2004, 00:09:19 UTC

That's the worst bit. That you mean them. You shouldn't have to.

But there we are, you do mean them.

My God.

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deanthomas April 24 2004, 00:35:56 UTC
Professor Lupin? It's okay.

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lupercus April 24 2004, 00:40:17 UTC
No, it's really not okay, Dean. Not at all okay.

And I'm not your professor anymore, you know. Please, you can call me Remus.

It's no time for formalities anymore, anyway.

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deanthomas April 24 2004, 00:44:08 UTC
It's okay right now. At this moment, it just is. I've never felt so sure about something before.

I'm not naive. I know I might die. Seamus might. Harry might. Neville. Ron. But I'm not just going to wait for it, or hide, or hope for the best.

I guess times like these mean making a choice and standing by it. Finally and completely.

Sorry Remus. I keep forgetting.

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lupercus April 24 2004, 00:50:51 UTC
You don't understand, but then I don't think you're supposed to. This is all new, for you.

But you sound so much like someone I once knew. So much, and he was brave and everything a Gryffindor ought to be, so you should be proud of that. I certainly was, to call him my friend.

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deanthomas April 24 2004, 00:54:49 UTC
It is new. Sorry it's so familiar to you, though.

Thank you. Since you're using past tense, I guess he didn't live to see this all happening again, did he?

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lupercus April 24 2004, 01:01:31 UTC

No, he did not. Neither did his lovely wife. Though they left us a rather brilliant heirloom.

Their fate, however, does not have to be yours. They were betrayed. You will be careful.

Please, be careful.

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deanthomas April 24 2004, 01:03:01 UTC
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I'll be careful.

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lupercus April 24 2004, 01:05:25 UTC

Good boy.

My, I love a good discussion of a dire subject before bed, don't you?

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deanthomas April 24 2004, 01:11:55 UTC
Not usually, no, but it helped actually. Gave me a different perspective, if you will.

'Night, Remus. Sleep well. I know I'll try to.

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lupercus April 24 2004, 01:12:34 UTC

Good night. Pleasant dreams, if you find any.

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