My Nemesis and Things of Stone and Wood
An update on life...
Not much changes really in my day to day:
I go to work and I smile
I book shows and I smile
I go to bed and I smile
I wake up and say WTF?!?!
I need to get back to going to church a bit more regularly. I find myself not wanting it, because I am done with people who act all churchy... I want something more visceral, more real... where people actually DO care for each other and it is a REAL community... Where the message is relevant for normal people like me, wanting to live out their faith in a flawed world and who may not fit the mould of a "Christian" as stereotypes would have it - and to be honest... I never want to fit that mould - i hate that mould.
I watched The Last Kiss recently... It left me thinking far too much... It covered the cheating, the passion and the real love that occurs in almost all the relationships I know. When I see cheating, even on films - I cringe... It gets me pissed that people can do that... and even more so that is somehow glamorized in movies. There is nothing glamorous about it - people get hurt... souls get torn to shreds over it. I don't want to come across as self righteous about it, but i have never cheated and I pray to God that I never get myself into a position where I do... and if I ever do, I hope I have a good enough friend to punch me in the mouth for being such a jerk off.
Things that have happened of late that have been new and fresh:
I bought a house and if all goes according to plan i will close on the 18th April... Check the pics:
Ummm... what else...
Occasionally I manage to meet someone who knows how to get through my walls and bust up my composure... it drives me crazy, yet I don't want to be away from them. They intrigue me, yet they seem comfortably familiar to me. I can't take my eyes off of them, yet I don't want to look at them. They tap my heart, yet I am fighting them off like they are bad for it. It has been a while since I have looked someone in the eyes and just been stolen, but at the same time pissed off because I am. But if I am absolutely honest with myself... They can make me feel alive...
Aside from that:
I am doing too much, but surprise surprise... but I am working on it
Not much changes really in my day to day:
I go to work and I smile
I book shows and I smile
I go to bed and I smile
I wake up and say WTF?!?!
I need to get back to going to church a bit more regularly. I find myself not wanting it, because I am done with people who act all churchy... I want something more visceral, more real... where people actually DO care for each other and it is a REAL community... Where the message is relevant for normal people like me, wanting to live out their faith in a flawed world and who may not fit the mould of a "Christian" as stereotypes would have it - and to be honest... I never want to fit that mould - i hate that mould.
I watched The Last Kiss recently... It left me thinking far too much... It covered the cheating, the passion and the real love that occurs in almost all the relationships I know. When I see cheating, even on films - I cringe... It gets me pissed that people can do that... and even more so that is somehow glamorized in movies. There is nothing glamorous about it - people get hurt... souls get torn to shreds over it. I don't want to come across as self righteous about it, but i have never cheated and I pray to God that I never get myself into a position where I do... and if I ever do, I hope I have a good enough friend to punch me in the mouth for being such a jerk off.
Things that have happened of late that have been new and fresh:
I bought a house and if all goes according to plan i will close on the 18th April... Check the pics:
Ummm... what else...
Occasionally I manage to meet someone who knows how to get through my walls and bust up my composure... it drives me crazy, yet I don't want to be away from them. They intrigue me, yet they seem comfortably familiar to me. I can't take my eyes off of them, yet I don't want to look at them. They tap my heart, yet I am fighting them off like they are bad for it. It has been a while since I have looked someone in the eyes and just been stolen, but at the same time pissed off because I am. But if I am absolutely honest with myself... They can make me feel alive...
Aside from that:
I am doing too much, but surprise surprise... but I am working on it