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I am a rubbish girlfriend, demanding that Alistair decides when he's coming to see me so I have something to look forward to - how incredibly selfish. I get so wrapped up in planning our next time together and at the moment that's not what it's about. He has so much more important stuff to be doing, namely his dissertation, that i need to just give him the space to do that. I would hate for our relationship to impact on his degree, although i'm sure it has in some ways, but hopefully they're positive ways? We've had pretty weird phone conversations this week, i really don't know why. We're both busy and working hard and i think we're just finding it difficult being apart. I'm finding it really hard. We'll be there for each other at the end of all this, so i know we don't need to worry and we have a really strong relationship that this little glitch won't make a difference. The amount of things we've gone through being apart these past three years has made us solid. I just want to be with him and be there for him. I love you with all my heart Alistair. xxxxx