Sugar, We're Going Down
Agh. Is it just me or has everyone else been nfjsfnjdf lately, too? I'm so annoyed with myself and I don't even know why. I need a vacation. I want to go to Florida, this summer we're supposed to go but I have no one to go with, I'm thinking of asking Caitlyn if she wants to go. That'd be really super fun. Back to being annoyed with myself, I really don't like myself lately. I just think certain things or feel certain things and then I stop and thinking "Why did I just think that/Why do I feel like this? I suck." Maybe if I was Amish this wouldn't be happening (don't ask, it's a long story involving this kid at school whose jugular I want to rip out. Hmmm who else other than me can sympathize with the kid who makes fun of them? That takes skill and seriously low self-esteem. Go me.)I wish I wasn't like I am. I need to be less like this (I don't want to come out and say what this is because that will just spur conflict. I don't like conflict. But apparently it loves me.)
My dad is arguing with my sister about how he thinks Jesus is an alien O_O
For those of you in "the know" of the most recent conflict I've been dealing with, it has been resolved. I'm really happy/excited but also kind of sad.
Yesterday was a beautiful day and I just really wanted to go outside and go bike riding or something (I've noticed I'm really changing in ways like that. I really really really want to go swimming too. I can't wait for my dad to get the pool ready. Eeehhhh swimming. I need to/want to do laps (o_O there is definitely something wrong with me) but I couldn't because I have so much work this weekend (I really shouldn't even be taking the time to write this entry, but I am. Gotta love my priorities.) I think I need a swimmy suit(yes swimmy suit, I'm awesome like that), though. I hate getting new clothes and the like. It's too hard and it makes me uber self conscious. I think I actually have a pretty outfit for Easter though, but I may need new shoes. I hate getting new shoes the most because my feet suck.
Today it's cloudy and rainy. I want it to start pouring and then I want to go out and stand in the front yard and get soaked. But I still have to study for history and do some more bio. Grr. Oh and I also need to start transferring stuff onto my new laptop (eee!) My dad finally realized my computer was breaking so he's giving me the extra one.
I thought this vent would make me feel better. Nope, still mad at me, among others, but when I get mad at them I get madder at me because it's all so stupid.
My dad is arguing with my sister about how he thinks Jesus is an alien O_O
For those of you in "the know" of the most recent conflict I've been dealing with, it has been resolved. I'm really happy/excited but also kind of sad.
Yesterday was a beautiful day and I just really wanted to go outside and go bike riding or something (I've noticed I'm really changing in ways like that. I really really really want to go swimming too. I can't wait for my dad to get the pool ready. Eeehhhh swimming. I need to/want to do laps (o_O there is definitely something wrong with me) but I couldn't because I have so much work this weekend (I really shouldn't even be taking the time to write this entry, but I am. Gotta love my priorities.) I think I need a swimmy suit(yes swimmy suit, I'm awesome like that), though. I hate getting new clothes and the like. It's too hard and it makes me uber self conscious. I think I actually have a pretty outfit for Easter though, but I may need new shoes. I hate getting new shoes the most because my feet suck.
Today it's cloudy and rainy. I want it to start pouring and then I want to go out and stand in the front yard and get soaked. But I still have to study for history and do some more bio. Grr. Oh and I also need to start transferring stuff onto my new laptop (eee!) My dad finally realized my computer was breaking so he's giving me the extra one.
I thought this vent would make me feel better. Nope, still mad at me, among others, but when I get mad at them I get madder at me because it's all so stupid.