Ok new plan
I've been a total dick since my last 2009 post. Im over it. Ill be 24 years old in September. Im done being jealous. Its time to start a new era. Its time to try a more realistic approach. The teenage attitude is finally gone. I work 12 hours a day, and I work 6 days a week. Im involved in so many new and exciting/challenging things. I can't keep letting myself down anymore. First thing's first. Time to get back into shape. The best shape I've ever been in to be exact. My habits of smoking and drinking need to dwindle. I need a new sense of pose. Carry myself in a more important way, so that people know im not just fucking around anymore. Its time to start being more nice to the people I care about. Be more open minded to different options/opinions. I need to get my life on track to a solid future. You know why? Because at this very second, right now; I have absolutely no future. I have been setting myself up for failure this entire time. Bullshitting around with the stuff that's in the here and now, not with the stuff that is the then and there. This will be a difficult process at times. I will loose and gain many allies during this challenge, but what must happen must happen.