Some news and maybe a RANT for the girls about simpleton boys...
Okay so as I type this I am sitting here once again with the phone glued to my ear waiting for the next call even though I want to fling it across the room. Im smoking another cancer stick, dealing with the same guy calling back over and over again but hes an ass so I dont answer with a different name each time just the same "hi this is amy whos this" everytime so he continuously hangs up before slaughtering my average.
But moving on.... So yeah just got a ring from dad... Jared went in for surgery on his severly broken foot which had to have some titanium screws put into it or something... Yeah he busted his foot bad but is heading into recovery as I type this and should be home in a few hours.
YAY because we are sooo slow they let me go off of work early only sucky thing is that later I will have to log back in (only if I want to) to make up the 3 more hours I am losing out on...
OKAY SO SUE ME BOYS IF YOU DONT WANNA HEAR THIS DONT READ FURTHER!!! I dont know how to do those tag thingys liek Kate does in her journal...
But yeah so I hate to be like anyones downer or anything but I do have one thing to rant about... Its not like I am going to dump Josh okay its just that everything he seems to be doing lately tells me to. No hes not cheating on me (unless you count the sexual abuse he commits on his left hand multiple times a day) and hes not mean or verbally or physically abusive... I mean PLEASE this boy I could snap him in half with my freaking eye lids...
Its just that I have never been with a guy for over two months like we have been and never gotten a flower... Unless you count lame ass leech off me Justin... Which was a HUGE MISTAKE...But yeah so I hinted around it along with the fact that he doesnt go down but oh sure he expects you too... I am getting a lil sick of it so I have gone on suck strike... I will not be sucking... LOL but anyways so the last time I saw him which was like dec 3rd I had told him that when he showed up on Friday that I thought it would be in his best interest to get me some damn flowers since he wasnt getting the hint... I know he acts retarded but he really isnt or maybe I am giving him to much credit... I told him that I knew I had to spell things out for him if that was what I needed...
WELL...
Friday comes along and he shows up while I am in the shower... I come out to see him sitting on mommys bed talking to her as shes on the 'puter as always... I didnt see any flowers in hand but decided not to react to quickly as he may have left them downstairs... Okay so I get to my room and .... N-O-T-H-I-N-G!!!
WTF MAN WTF!!!!???? Okay so I decided to keep my cool although I was pissed... So called ass says he loves me all the time but the so called ass cant bring me a shitty carnation from Horrocks... Well that put my magnet on the floor ( you might hear this phrase a lot it means Im in no way horney... When magnet rises my mood does lol)
So I am boiling inside and of course he cant tell because either hes that stupid or well Im just that good at hiding how I feel. A few minutes later he pulls this ring out of his pocket... Its one of those Pewter/Silver Ren Fest Rings that are like those vampiric blood letting rings that just slide over the top of your finger... He said " I thought you might really like this. I got it from the Ren Fest years ago and well I thought it was right up your alley." Of course I said thank you... Although I look punkish and shit Im just not sure shap ended blood letting rings are really my thing anymore... Ive changed... Plus its a nice thought but when am I ever gonna wear it?
So yeah It was slightly bent out of shape and I commented on that while spending twenty minutes prying back into its circular form so that it actually properly fit over the finger... And as I am doing this behind me hes talking to Dan about that ring and how it had been on his nasty dirty bedroom floor for the past 6 months or whatever and how he had continuously stepped on it... Wow Stupid thing to say in front of me... Thanks for your garbage Josh... I mean your intent is nice and all BUT... Cha you know what YOU FAIL!!!
Boyfriend 101 states that you should not give your girl something used unless its expensive and important and you should never give her your trash that you didnt care about enough to pick up off of your florr before your girl told you that you needed to do something nice for her.
Hmmm so now Dan and David are going to talk to him I guess because hes not getting the cluse and hints from me... Oh and get this... Because he didnt get me flowers he said he might finally "lick" me that night if I had showered... I said "my hair is still soaking wet so obviously I have showered, you saw me get out of the shower, and I doubt it..."
So later he makes the worst attempt EVER... I mean his tongue didnt even technically touch the pussy region... okay Pussy lipps being lightly kissed and barely touched with a tongue DOESNT COUNT... GOD WHY TRY AT ALL... I am Extremely at the moment unsatisfied with my sexual expierence with this man... All weekend we barely had sex because of my continued dissatisfaction.... And when he finally got me in the mood and we were doing it, it would be fine until he would just stop or he would stop going from full deep strokes (which almost had me over the waterfall) to short shallow strokes that well left me wanting to push him off and tell him that I didnt know why he bothered but I didnt... I just let him finish before I got up smoked a cig and then rolled over to go to bed...
I dont know what to do I do need some chicky advise because hes a good guy HES JUST RETARDED and I know that money isnt always the issue here too because if he can afford porno videos to buy all the time he can spend some $$ on his woman.. You know he hasnt even taken me out to a nice place to eat? I dont count Dennys and the resturant you work at ( Okemos Cracker Barell) a nice romantic dinner... I have had better dinners with people on one night stands... Whats wrong with the men in my life... They all got it backwards... Maybe its not them maybe its me....
All I know is I am about sick of this crud and thinking about going back to the single life with the occastional descret hook up because well life was simpler then... I dont want to break Joshes heart but this back woods hick boy has either got to shape up or hes got to get out... I love it that my family loves him and they are all rooting for him... But hes got to do a lil more romantically for me if this is going to last... Even my ex husband the ASSHOLE got me flowers a lot and took me out to fancy places to eat and such... Oh well sorry for the rant but I had to get that shit out... Love you guys see ya
But moving on.... So yeah just got a ring from dad... Jared went in for surgery on his severly broken foot which had to have some titanium screws put into it or something... Yeah he busted his foot bad but is heading into recovery as I type this and should be home in a few hours.
YAY because we are sooo slow they let me go off of work early only sucky thing is that later I will have to log back in (only if I want to) to make up the 3 more hours I am losing out on...
OKAY SO SUE ME BOYS IF YOU DONT WANNA HEAR THIS DONT READ FURTHER!!! I dont know how to do those tag thingys liek Kate does in her journal...
But yeah so I hate to be like anyones downer or anything but I do have one thing to rant about... Its not like I am going to dump Josh okay its just that everything he seems to be doing lately tells me to. No hes not cheating on me (unless you count the sexual abuse he commits on his left hand multiple times a day) and hes not mean or verbally or physically abusive... I mean PLEASE this boy I could snap him in half with my freaking eye lids...
Its just that I have never been with a guy for over two months like we have been and never gotten a flower... Unless you count lame ass leech off me Justin... Which was a HUGE MISTAKE...But yeah so I hinted around it along with the fact that he doesnt go down but oh sure he expects you too... I am getting a lil sick of it so I have gone on suck strike... I will not be sucking... LOL but anyways so the last time I saw him which was like dec 3rd I had told him that when he showed up on Friday that I thought it would be in his best interest to get me some damn flowers since he wasnt getting the hint... I know he acts retarded but he really isnt or maybe I am giving him to much credit... I told him that I knew I had to spell things out for him if that was what I needed...
WELL...
Friday comes along and he shows up while I am in the shower... I come out to see him sitting on mommys bed talking to her as shes on the 'puter as always... I didnt see any flowers in hand but decided not to react to quickly as he may have left them downstairs... Okay so I get to my room and .... N-O-T-H-I-N-G!!!
WTF MAN WTF!!!!???? Okay so I decided to keep my cool although I was pissed... So called ass says he loves me all the time but the so called ass cant bring me a shitty carnation from Horrocks... Well that put my magnet on the floor ( you might hear this phrase a lot it means Im in no way horney... When magnet rises my mood does lol)
So I am boiling inside and of course he cant tell because either hes that stupid or well Im just that good at hiding how I feel. A few minutes later he pulls this ring out of his pocket... Its one of those Pewter/Silver Ren Fest Rings that are like those vampiric blood letting rings that just slide over the top of your finger... He said " I thought you might really like this. I got it from the Ren Fest years ago and well I thought it was right up your alley." Of course I said thank you... Although I look punkish and shit Im just not sure shap ended blood letting rings are really my thing anymore... Ive changed... Plus its a nice thought but when am I ever gonna wear it?
So yeah It was slightly bent out of shape and I commented on that while spending twenty minutes prying back into its circular form so that it actually properly fit over the finger... And as I am doing this behind me hes talking to Dan about that ring and how it had been on his nasty dirty bedroom floor for the past 6 months or whatever and how he had continuously stepped on it... Wow Stupid thing to say in front of me... Thanks for your garbage Josh... I mean your intent is nice and all BUT... Cha you know what YOU FAIL!!!
Boyfriend 101 states that you should not give your girl something used unless its expensive and important and you should never give her your trash that you didnt care about enough to pick up off of your florr before your girl told you that you needed to do something nice for her.
Hmmm so now Dan and David are going to talk to him I guess because hes not getting the cluse and hints from me... Oh and get this... Because he didnt get me flowers he said he might finally "lick" me that night if I had showered... I said "my hair is still soaking wet so obviously I have showered, you saw me get out of the shower, and I doubt it..."
So later he makes the worst attempt EVER... I mean his tongue didnt even technically touch the pussy region... okay Pussy lipps being lightly kissed and barely touched with a tongue DOESNT COUNT... GOD WHY TRY AT ALL... I am Extremely at the moment unsatisfied with my sexual expierence with this man... All weekend we barely had sex because of my continued dissatisfaction.... And when he finally got me in the mood and we were doing it, it would be fine until he would just stop or he would stop going from full deep strokes (which almost had me over the waterfall) to short shallow strokes that well left me wanting to push him off and tell him that I didnt know why he bothered but I didnt... I just let him finish before I got up smoked a cig and then rolled over to go to bed...
I dont know what to do I do need some chicky advise because hes a good guy HES JUST RETARDED and I know that money isnt always the issue here too because if he can afford porno videos to buy all the time he can spend some $$ on his woman.. You know he hasnt even taken me out to a nice place to eat? I dont count Dennys and the resturant you work at ( Okemos Cracker Barell) a nice romantic dinner... I have had better dinners with people on one night stands... Whats wrong with the men in my life... They all got it backwards... Maybe its not them maybe its me....
All I know is I am about sick of this crud and thinking about going back to the single life with the occastional descret hook up because well life was simpler then... I dont want to break Joshes heart but this back woods hick boy has either got to shape up or hes got to get out... I love it that my family loves him and they are all rooting for him... But hes got to do a lil more romantically for me if this is going to last... Even my ex husband the ASSHOLE got me flowers a lot and took me out to fancy places to eat and such... Oh well sorry for the rant but I had to get that shit out... Love you guys see ya