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deana_moon

My last public entry

Dec 05, 2006 16:08

My name is Deana Ronee Moon. I was born on June 14th,1985 at 7:14pm at what now is called Ingham medical. I choked almost to death on fecal matter filled amniotic fluid which has ruined my lungs. I lived a pretty tramatic life. I notice that throughout these years its been hard for me to keep meaningful relationships with some people. All my life ( Read more... )

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deana_moon December 5 2006, 23:30:46 UTC

I know I am not perfect... Im not easy but none of you have seemed to want to give me a chance since I started my meds and have been doing better... Im still sorry about that night when I slipped out of hanging out but shit practically everyone was talking about leaving then soon or had left... Plus my man said he was ready to bounce anyways to me and made it seem like he didnt care... Well now shits changed... No one sees or hears such things though... A lot of shit has changed about me since I started going to college...

*sigh* here goes...(part one) deana_moon December 7 2006, 04:10:26 UTC

You know, it's not that you're a phone sex operator that grosses me out. Yeah, that IS gross, but that's a stupid reason to disassociate with someone. Don't assume that was the reason, especially since I already told you once before that it didn't really bug me. I was like "ew, creepy" about it, but that's cuz I know some sleezeball is jacking off while you're talking to him. It's creepy. But not why I stopped talking to you ( ... )

*sigh* here goes...(part two) deana_moon December 7 2006, 04:12:06 UTC

And you know what? I know things have been horrible for you. I read your entries, when public, because I use Tessa's "Comrades" page to see what "our group" is up to. I can't say that ALL you do is complain, because you add in little positives here and there, but they're usually things that I have nothing to respond about anyway. Got a new boyfriend? "Oh cool, congrats, hope he lasts longer than the last one..." Seriously, it almost seems like it'd be offensive if I did comment on a positive post from you. And the complaint/depressing posts, I don't even wanna touch. Mostly because I have an urge to point out that alot of the personal bad things that happen to you could have been avoided by not doing one thing or another, usually something that I'd have deemed common sense anyhow. So I try to avoid commenting in general, to protect you from the blunt truth of my opinions, because usually it's offensive to someone, somewhere. I used to piss off Amanda all the time ( ... )

Re: *sigh* here goes...(part two) deana_moon December 8 2006, 07:17:55 UTC

It would be nice to start things over I just have the feeling that you among others dont want to... I know I have had a lot of boyfriends but the first part well I was fucked up and depressed... Im medicated and better now. I just dont feel like I have anything to hide. I am an open book. I know a lot of people that are okay with my open book policy. I just talk. I talk about everything and everything... Its not like I have much else to talk about with school or whatnot... Its the same old.. I still have a 4.0 and rising thing... I cant talk about guys that much and have tried not to talk about them because well I will admit it... I try to give someone a chance and well there ends up not being any connection whatsoever... so yeah... But I have gotten better... My list could be longer but no longer do I feel that I have so sleep around to feel better about myself or punish myself. Dads been off drugs for about 1 1/2 years... almost... Mom just picked back up again after a long dry spell... NO KIDS SMOKE!!! Mar moved out and me and dave ( ... )

Re: *sigh* here goes...(part two) deana_moon December 8 2006, 11:56:22 UTC

Well, maybe the open book policy should... crease some pages or something. I disagree with having to change for others, but I also know the limitations and restrictions of my friendships. Certain things aren't okay to talk about, so I save them for myself, or a trusted friend during a one-on-one convo.
Anyway, You don't have to stand alone. That's what I'm trying to say. If you're willing to work at it, and probably work hard, you can go to where your friends are standing, and compromise with them, just as you'd expect your friends to come stand with you. If I didn't have to leave for work right now, I'd use an elaborate metaphor to explain that, but there's no time. Maybe I'll comment again when I get home?
I do want help you get a second change with your social life and start over with our friendships. I think it would do wonders for your mental health as well. Anyway, gotta go. Good luck.
-Jon

Re: *sigh* here goes...(part two) deana_moon December 8 2006, 17:40:40 UTC

Yeah I just guess I have been use to the older crowds recently and they all are pretty open books as well. I understand that people dont want to hear certain things but alas I am trying not to be sooo open to everyone all the time... I understand what you are trying to say without the metaphor I am intelligent enough to get that lol But anyways... Im a brokey broke girl that gets paid sometime next week between wed and fri and well I am going to have friday off but its packed with plans with my two guys buddies ( we dont "fool" around never had never will) they are taking me to dinner and a movie and heading back to their place like we always do to play some video games or smoke one and watch a movie. I do enjoy their company I just miss the younger crowd which is you guys lol... But anyways if I knew what you peeps were up to I would say lets do something on this such night but I dont know what you guys are doing....

Re: *sigh* here goes...(part two) deana_moon December 9 2006, 18:49:52 UTC

Eh, just suggest something. Worse case scenario: we're all busy. Best case: we have some sorta group outing. As a rule, I try not to do anything on nights that I have to work the next morning. Tends to result in me being uber tired/crabby.

Well, have fun and stuff. Let me (and everyone else, heh) know if you wanna do something. I'm usually down for whatever, as long as certain people aren't there. We HATES certain people...
-Jon

Re: *sigh* here goes...(part two) deana_moon December 9 2006, 21:50:36 UTC

Yeah sounds like fun... I would love to hang out and go bowling or something... I mentioned it on kates voicemail that it would be nice if we all could get together and go bowling and whatnot around the week you have off... I am going to save some money but anyways... talk to you later have a good day see ya and call me sometime if you feel like it

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