Forbidden Love
Title: Forbidden Love
Author: dean_itoh
Pairing/Subject: Takaki Yuya/Yamada Ryosuke
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: You know that the boys aren't mine~
Summary: Sometimes love is just to let go
Because windy-0809 wants me to tag her (or him?), and I hope this is the right way
The room was awkward with the silent of the members. It’s been months since they knew about Takaki and Yamada’s relationship, but they still couldn’t make up their mind. Yabu and Inoo exchanged look before walked out of the room without any words. The other followed them in silent too.
Takaki looked at the door, silently questioned himself about his friends’ attitude, but he didn’t try to speak up too. He looked at Yamada who was sitting on the couch and busy with his phone.
“Ryosuke.”
“Hm?”
Yamada was still busy with his phone, but when he didn’t hear any word from Takaki, he stopped staring at his phone and took his hat. “What?”
“Can’t we just stop this?”
Yamada turned and stared him in horror. “What do you mean?”
“Ryosuke, I do know that you understand that we can’t keep this going.”
Yamada sank himself to the couch. His phone was forgotten right away. The tears suddenly dropped on his cheeks. “How can you say that easily?”
“It isn’t easy for me too, trust me. It’s very hard until I ..., I don’t know what to do to save us.”
Yamada closed his eyes and wiped the tears. He breathed heavily.
“So the years we’ve been through means nothing to you.”
Takaki reached for his arms and forced Yamada to face him.
“Every second we’ve been through over years means something to me. Everything. Every breath I breathe I always pray that God will give us a way, but I do realize too, that we are living in this real world. The world where people do not accept irregular things. The world where we should living it in normal norms. We are crossing the line Ryosuke.”
Yamada gritted his teeth and his tears streamed down his cheeks. He shook his head. “I can’t. I do realize it, but I don’t think I can let you go. I can’t live without you.”
The tears dropped in Takaki’s cheek. “Me too, but what can we do? We can’t do anything.”
“You give up after all these years? That easy?”
Takaki shook his head weakly. “I can’t stand longer than this. I want to shout to the world that I love you but I can’t. It hurts. Too much until I can’t breathe every time I realize it.”
Yamada reached for Takaki’s arms. “We can make it. Just wait a little longer. I know we can make it.”
Once again Takaki shook his head weakly. “It’s been years, Ryosuke, and I don’t think I can hide it anymore. I’m too much in love with you until I can’t hide it from anyone. So far, they don’t realize that what I’ve said to you is real, yet. It’s not yet, Ryosuke, that means one day they will know that I’m not playing with my words. That time, we’re done. We’re carrying a time bomb, Ryosuke. I can’t imagine what will happen when the bomb explodes. There will be so much destruction, and I can’t imagine how severe the damage will be."
“There’s nothing will happen as long as we keep this, Yuya. There’s nothing will happen. There will be no damage out there. JUMP will totally be fine forever.”
Outside of the room, six persons stood in silent. Yabu dan Hikaru didn’t move at all, while Inoo gritted his teeth and many times closed his eyes. There’s a sting in his heart and he could only clutch it in silent. Daiki and Yuto didn’t try to wipe the tears that rolled down their cheek, while Chinen was ducking his head and didn’t move from the floor. He gripped his own hands tightly.
“We’re so pathetic, aren’t we?” Inoo stared at the blank spot before took a glance to the door. “There, few steps ahead, inside that room, our friends are suffering and we can’t do anything.”
No one answered him. They’re too busy to ease their emotion.
“I’ve read somewhere that family is like parts of a body. One part wounded the other parts will scream the hurt.” Inoo clutched his chest more. “They’re crying, and here we are doing nothing.”
Hikaru turned and walked away when he couldn’t hold his tears. Yabu followed him, and also Daiki together with Yuto. Inoo just stood in his place for a moment while staring at the door silently, before walked away too, leaving Chinen alone on the floor.
A second after Inoo entered the elevator, the door of the room opened, revealed Yamada who walked out weakly. His shoulder slumped and he looked very tired. He looked at Chinen and stopped. He patted his head gently.
Chinen looked up and Yamada could see his face was pale.
“Something is wrong with my stomach.”
Yamada knelt in front of him. “Should we go to the doctor?”
Chinen didn’t say anything. He just ducked his head again, and that’s enough for Yamada to decide.
“Wait here. I’ll call Yuya. He’s still here.”
Yamada ran away to the room and came back with Takaki tailed behind him. Without any word, Takaki lifted Chinen in his embrace and almost ran to his car.
Takaki didn’t say anything along the way to the hospital. He just took a glance many times to the back seat. He still didn’t say anything too when they reached the hospital. Yamada did all the talk, even when the doctor finished examined Chinen.
Takaki just stood there, beside the bed and stared intently to Chinen, silently asked him an explanation.
Yamada suddenly understood the situation. He silently stepped backwards, and almost with no sound he walked out of the room.
“Ryosuke!”
He turned around and found Yuto was running to him.
“How’s Yuri?”
“How do you know?”
Yuto panted hard. “A junior called me that Yuya held him in his embrace and you tailed behind them in a hurry. How’s he?”
“Just a little stress, but he needs more rest. Doctor said he can go home now but he should take a break for a while.”
“Thanks God. It means he’s okay now. Where’s Yuya?”
Yamada signed him that the older was in the room.
Yuto wanted to go inside but Yamada stopped him. He shook his head weakly.
“Please, give them space. Yuya once told me that Yuri got this kind of situation before, so I believe he is asking Yuri for explanation now.”
The door opened and Yuya stepped outside. He almost surprised to see Yuto was there but didn’t have a chance to ask because Yuto had ran into the room.
Both Yamada and Takaki stood silently in front of the door. They didn’t say anything. They didn’t even looked at each other. They just stood there, without any words.
“He doesn’t need to stay here, does he?”
Both Takaki and Yamada turned to see Inoo was standing in front of him while raising his brows because he got no answer for a while.
“Oh! Yes, he doesn’t need to stay, but the doctor said he needs more rest.” Yamada almost stammered when explained Chinen’s condition.
Inoo breathed heavily and read the silent question from Takaki about his presence. “I’m still in the building when you rushed to your car. I just can’t manage to go after you. You ran too fast, and I’ve lost you when I reached the parking lot.”
Yamada smiled lightly and caresed Inoo’s arm. “Sorry, we just panicked. Yuri looked suffered.”
The door opened and Yuto walked out together with Chinen who tailed behind him.
“I’ll deal with the administration.” Inoo walked away before anyone could stop him.
Yuto reached for Chinen’s arm. “I’ll take Yuri home.”
“I’m going with you.”
Both Yuto and Chinen looked at Yamada and nodded together. Chinen stopped after few steps and turned around.
“Yuya, thank you. I’m fine now.”
Takaki sighed heavily and walked beside him. “Are you sure?”
Chinen smiled. “Sure. I feel okay now.”
Takaki didn’t say anything more. He took a glance to Yamada and a sudden sting attacked his heart. He gritted his teeth hard.
What should we do?
Author: dean_itoh
Pairing/Subject: Takaki Yuya/Yamada Ryosuke
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: You know that the boys aren't mine~
Summary: Sometimes love is just to let go
Because windy-0809 wants me to tag her (or him?), and I hope this is the right way
The room was awkward with the silent of the members. It’s been months since they knew about Takaki and Yamada’s relationship, but they still couldn’t make up their mind. Yabu and Inoo exchanged look before walked out of the room without any words. The other followed them in silent too.
Takaki looked at the door, silently questioned himself about his friends’ attitude, but he didn’t try to speak up too. He looked at Yamada who was sitting on the couch and busy with his phone.
“Ryosuke.”
“Hm?”
Yamada was still busy with his phone, but when he didn’t hear any word from Takaki, he stopped staring at his phone and took his hat. “What?”
“Can’t we just stop this?”
Yamada turned and stared him in horror. “What do you mean?”
“Ryosuke, I do know that you understand that we can’t keep this going.”
Yamada sank himself to the couch. His phone was forgotten right away. The tears suddenly dropped on his cheeks. “How can you say that easily?”
“It isn’t easy for me too, trust me. It’s very hard until I ..., I don’t know what to do to save us.”
Yamada closed his eyes and wiped the tears. He breathed heavily.
“So the years we’ve been through means nothing to you.”
Takaki reached for his arms and forced Yamada to face him.
“Every second we’ve been through over years means something to me. Everything. Every breath I breathe I always pray that God will give us a way, but I do realize too, that we are living in this real world. The world where people do not accept irregular things. The world where we should living it in normal norms. We are crossing the line Ryosuke.”
Yamada gritted his teeth and his tears streamed down his cheeks. He shook his head. “I can’t. I do realize it, but I don’t think I can let you go. I can’t live without you.”
The tears dropped in Takaki’s cheek. “Me too, but what can we do? We can’t do anything.”
“You give up after all these years? That easy?”
Takaki shook his head weakly. “I can’t stand longer than this. I want to shout to the world that I love you but I can’t. It hurts. Too much until I can’t breathe every time I realize it.”
Yamada reached for Takaki’s arms. “We can make it. Just wait a little longer. I know we can make it.”
Once again Takaki shook his head weakly. “It’s been years, Ryosuke, and I don’t think I can hide it anymore. I’m too much in love with you until I can’t hide it from anyone. So far, they don’t realize that what I’ve said to you is real, yet. It’s not yet, Ryosuke, that means one day they will know that I’m not playing with my words. That time, we’re done. We’re carrying a time bomb, Ryosuke. I can’t imagine what will happen when the bomb explodes. There will be so much destruction, and I can’t imagine how severe the damage will be."
“There’s nothing will happen as long as we keep this, Yuya. There’s nothing will happen. There will be no damage out there. JUMP will totally be fine forever.”
Outside of the room, six persons stood in silent. Yabu dan Hikaru didn’t move at all, while Inoo gritted his teeth and many times closed his eyes. There’s a sting in his heart and he could only clutch it in silent. Daiki and Yuto didn’t try to wipe the tears that rolled down their cheek, while Chinen was ducking his head and didn’t move from the floor. He gripped his own hands tightly.
“We’re so pathetic, aren’t we?” Inoo stared at the blank spot before took a glance to the door. “There, few steps ahead, inside that room, our friends are suffering and we can’t do anything.”
No one answered him. They’re too busy to ease their emotion.
“I’ve read somewhere that family is like parts of a body. One part wounded the other parts will scream the hurt.” Inoo clutched his chest more. “They’re crying, and here we are doing nothing.”
Hikaru turned and walked away when he couldn’t hold his tears. Yabu followed him, and also Daiki together with Yuto. Inoo just stood in his place for a moment while staring at the door silently, before walked away too, leaving Chinen alone on the floor.
A second after Inoo entered the elevator, the door of the room opened, revealed Yamada who walked out weakly. His shoulder slumped and he looked very tired. He looked at Chinen and stopped. He patted his head gently.
Chinen looked up and Yamada could see his face was pale.
“Something is wrong with my stomach.”
Yamada knelt in front of him. “Should we go to the doctor?”
Chinen didn’t say anything. He just ducked his head again, and that’s enough for Yamada to decide.
“Wait here. I’ll call Yuya. He’s still here.”
Yamada ran away to the room and came back with Takaki tailed behind him. Without any word, Takaki lifted Chinen in his embrace and almost ran to his car.
Takaki didn’t say anything along the way to the hospital. He just took a glance many times to the back seat. He still didn’t say anything too when they reached the hospital. Yamada did all the talk, even when the doctor finished examined Chinen.
Takaki just stood there, beside the bed and stared intently to Chinen, silently asked him an explanation.
Yamada suddenly understood the situation. He silently stepped backwards, and almost with no sound he walked out of the room.
“Ryosuke!”
He turned around and found Yuto was running to him.
“How’s Yuri?”
“How do you know?”
Yuto panted hard. “A junior called me that Yuya held him in his embrace and you tailed behind them in a hurry. How’s he?”
“Just a little stress, but he needs more rest. Doctor said he can go home now but he should take a break for a while.”
“Thanks God. It means he’s okay now. Where’s Yuya?”
Yamada signed him that the older was in the room.
Yuto wanted to go inside but Yamada stopped him. He shook his head weakly.
“Please, give them space. Yuya once told me that Yuri got this kind of situation before, so I believe he is asking Yuri for explanation now.”
The door opened and Yuya stepped outside. He almost surprised to see Yuto was there but didn’t have a chance to ask because Yuto had ran into the room.
Both Yamada and Takaki stood silently in front of the door. They didn’t say anything. They didn’t even looked at each other. They just stood there, without any words.
“He doesn’t need to stay here, does he?”
Both Takaki and Yamada turned to see Inoo was standing in front of him while raising his brows because he got no answer for a while.
“Oh! Yes, he doesn’t need to stay, but the doctor said he needs more rest.” Yamada almost stammered when explained Chinen’s condition.
Inoo breathed heavily and read the silent question from Takaki about his presence. “I’m still in the building when you rushed to your car. I just can’t manage to go after you. You ran too fast, and I’ve lost you when I reached the parking lot.”
Yamada smiled lightly and caresed Inoo’s arm. “Sorry, we just panicked. Yuri looked suffered.”
The door opened and Yuto walked out together with Chinen who tailed behind him.
“I’ll deal with the administration.” Inoo walked away before anyone could stop him.
Yuto reached for Chinen’s arm. “I’ll take Yuri home.”
“I’m going with you.”
Both Yuto and Chinen looked at Yamada and nodded together. Chinen stopped after few steps and turned around.
“Yuya, thank you. I’m fine now.”
Takaki sighed heavily and walked beside him. “Are you sure?”
Chinen smiled. “Sure. I feel okay now.”
Takaki didn’t say anything more. He took a glance to Yamada and a sudden sting attacked his heart. He gritted his teeth hard.
What should we do?