[private entry]
Sometimes it takes something very simple and unexpected to make you look at yourself and realise how wrong some things have gone.
Not that I would or could have done them differently, not without the knowledge I needed in order to be here at this point, but I do feel like smashing my head on the wall. Went for my fist instead, and lucky me, I didn't break it, though it hurts like hell and the wrist is all swollen. It doesn't hurt like....and you know, like the very silly pathetic creauture I am, I wish Jon was here. He still trusts me eventhough I don't deserve it.
Not that I would or could have done them differently, not without the knowledge I needed in order to be here at this point, but I do feel like smashing my head on the wall. Went for my fist instead, and lucky me, I didn't break it, though it hurts like hell and the wrist is all swollen. It doesn't hurt like....and you know, like the very silly pathetic creauture I am, I wish Jon was here. He still trusts me eventhough I don't deserve it.