ice cream

[deaflawngnome]

i remember this one study they did awhile ago, where they played radiohead for young kids, and they were supposed to draw pictures based on what the music did. and some kid drew an icecream cone about paranoid andoroid. and some otehr kids, 2nd graders i think, drew all these morbid pictures, like a lemonade stand, only it sold suicides..i just thought it was crazy that little kids had all taht inside them, and that radiohead, of all things, brought it out. im still feeling pained by pretty much evreything, too much homework, work to do, things i havnt done yet, my grades suck major, and i still feel a tad..i dont know.."off"?. yea. that bloody snow has been cast upon poor old us again, so no doubt i will be outside shoveling when my madre returns from her stupid job. :(. that sucks. today in english my teacher was talking about the book a clockwork orange, and i got all excited, because i adore it. so i actually raised my hand for the first time all year. ha. so now hopefully he will realize im not just a dumbass who sits in back of class and says nothing, because i do read, i just dont feel i have to share my opinion with the rest of my class..nor do i want to. im grounded due to my failures on all three tale of two cities quizzes..the fuck? who cares..i read the book..i just dont like quizes. yea so
-today was nothing..just nothing
-suicide assembly as school..didnt expalin about suicide at all really, but it was a grand sight to see that poor man get stuck in his devil mask
-im not allowed to play my guitar at night anoymore..the fuck?
-why do i always feel that theres nobody to talk to, when im surrounded by people, i dont dare say what im thinking.
-im still depressed about god knows what..i think its time to bring in the pro's..heh