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nearing the end of 2010.
i have a habit of constantly shuffling cards that are near me. in fact i catch myself pacing about shuffling these cards while i discuss futures that don't ever exist. conversations that have never happened.
this last weekend was quite a great weekend. i got to see someone awesome and amazing. randomly got her number at a bowling alley, and still talking to her. it's a good feeling. reminds me that i am capable i just have to always try.
i am incredibly ready for a road trip, across the country. or somewhere, i feel like i've grown stagnant but really only just this one day. my last trip to arizona was fun, and weird, and i was stupid all at the same time. i for some reason thought i wanted this girl out there, but crazy as it is, i really did not. i wanted none of it. but i tagged along. but it was awkward inside for me. i'm glad nothing happened. because the new people in my life are much greater than the weird twisted past.
i would like to spend sometime away, for months, in some other world just exploring life. but i would like to fall in love with someone, who shared the same idea. maybe someone who could help me explore my creativity and vice versa. i have visions, but difficulty expressing them.
i have a habit of constantly shuffling cards that are near me. in fact i catch myself pacing about shuffling these cards while i discuss futures that don't ever exist. conversations that have never happened.
this last weekend was quite a great weekend. i got to see someone awesome and amazing. randomly got her number at a bowling alley, and still talking to her. it's a good feeling. reminds me that i am capable i just have to always try.
i am incredibly ready for a road trip, across the country. or somewhere, i feel like i've grown stagnant but really only just this one day. my last trip to arizona was fun, and weird, and i was stupid all at the same time. i for some reason thought i wanted this girl out there, but crazy as it is, i really did not. i wanted none of it. but i tagged along. but it was awkward inside for me. i'm glad nothing happened. because the new people in my life are much greater than the weird twisted past.
i would like to spend sometime away, for months, in some other world just exploring life. but i would like to fall in love with someone, who shared the same idea. maybe someone who could help me explore my creativity and vice versa. i have visions, but difficulty expressing them.