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I'm tired of feeling like complete shit. It's constant. I've beginning to answer to everything that happens in life, to the solution of "oh I could just kill myself" nothing matters. Nothing will get better, Nothing will improve. I can't say things will necessarily get worse. They will, in the least stay the same. Stay dramatic, yet dull.
I've been trying, I haven't cut since the "incident". I have TRIED to find a job, but shit happens. Since I'm complete shit. I would go out more, if there were reasons to go out more. I do wish I could say goodbye to drugs, forever. Hey, its been at least a week since I've used anyways.
I do have to break a rule though. I apologize for this.
I can't go another day without seeing blood. Its to beautiful to resist.
I just need to feel, just one gash..
I've been trying, I haven't cut since the "incident". I have TRIED to find a job, but shit happens. Since I'm complete shit. I would go out more, if there were reasons to go out more. I do wish I could say goodbye to drugs, forever. Hey, its been at least a week since I've used anyways.
I do have to break a rule though. I apologize for this.
I can't go another day without seeing blood. Its to beautiful to resist.
I just need to feel, just one gash..