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i need one night to myself. for myself.
i love my friend to death, but i was secretly looking forward to a beer, some nachos, and a movie in my bedroom. maybe some masturbation. exhaustion is starting to sicken me. but he is kind of in a bad place, so i took out more money and went to meet him.
we talked and drank ourselves asleep. i actually had a good amount of sleep. roughly seven hours. it was freezing and i woke up to him spooning me at 5am. he was warm so i just went back to sleep and slipped in and out of nightmares where i was being shot at by friends and coworkers. i should get paid for dreaming about work.
he gave me good advice last night. and i just wish i could do more for my friends when they are hurting.
it is about 45 degrees and cold here. it's making me feel like winter is approaching and it's really fucking with my head. my thoughts are a little chaotic. things are happening all at once and so fast. i'm a bit overwhelmed.
i love my friend to death, but i was secretly looking forward to a beer, some nachos, and a movie in my bedroom. maybe some masturbation. exhaustion is starting to sicken me. but he is kind of in a bad place, so i took out more money and went to meet him.
we talked and drank ourselves asleep. i actually had a good amount of sleep. roughly seven hours. it was freezing and i woke up to him spooning me at 5am. he was warm so i just went back to sleep and slipped in and out of nightmares where i was being shot at by friends and coworkers. i should get paid for dreaming about work.
he gave me good advice last night. and i just wish i could do more for my friends when they are hurting.
it is about 45 degrees and cold here. it's making me feel like winter is approaching and it's really fucking with my head. my thoughts are a little chaotic. things are happening all at once and so fast. i'm a bit overwhelmed.