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I hate this.... this bullshit that has been going on for years.
People that are harassing me bc Im with Mat.
Its highschool drama I thought I left behind but it follows me...
I even have dreams about it... well nightmares... like last nite..
I cant take it.
I write in here bc I dont really have anyone to talk to about it.
And then Rob .. my ex.. god I hate him at times... he does the most fucked up shit, harasses me...and yet.. part of me wishes to speak with him right now.
But so many other people would be angry if we spoke that it isnt even worth it.
I feel like crying and I hate it.
My life is so perfect and fucked up at the same time that its driving me insane.
I have EVERYTHING and NOTHING all at once.
How the hell is that possible????
People that are harassing me bc Im with Mat.
Its highschool drama I thought I left behind but it follows me...
I even have dreams about it... well nightmares... like last nite..
I cant take it.
I write in here bc I dont really have anyone to talk to about it.
And then Rob .. my ex.. god I hate him at times... he does the most fucked up shit, harasses me...and yet.. part of me wishes to speak with him right now.
But so many other people would be angry if we spoke that it isnt even worth it.
I feel like crying and I hate it.
My life is so perfect and fucked up at the same time that its driving me insane.
I have EVERYTHING and NOTHING all at once.
How the hell is that possible????