Fuck
An inuit chick got the best of me today at work. She was wasted and sleeping outside when I kicked her out so Matt offered to drive her home after I was done. He helped me close up while keeping her entertained, and we eventually managed to coax her in the car (instead of her walking all the way home, since she had no money). We managed to decipher that she lived in Duff Court in Lachine, and after driving her out there she wanted 5 bucks or some weed to get out of the car. We must have spent a good 10 minutes negotiating with her to get her the fuck out of the car. Eventually I had to carry her out. She was bitching like mad at this point, and as I was getting in the car she started pushing the door against me, squeezing me between the door and the car, and I completely got into "instinct" mode and punched her in the face.
I feel horrible. You should never punch a woman. EVER. I guess after having to kick her out of the bar, then humoring her for a half hour 'till I finished, then driving her home, then negotiating with her to get out of the car, her pushing the door against me just made me snap. She even had a good hour / hour and a half to get sober... but that's not to say that she was at all sober.
So I ask you, LJ peoples. Judge me. I feel like shit for this. I completely lost it and connected my fist to the side of her jaw, as her head was the only thing sticking up above the door. It's not like I knocked her out or anything, I didn't put my full force behind it. But regardless, in that split-second, her jaw became a 3D object that needed to be punched in a right-to-left pattern. My frustration got the best of me, and when she started slamming the door against me I reacted in kind.
I guess I'm looking for absolution here, since I broke my own code of ethics tonight. Please, reply and tell me if I'm an asshole.
I feel horrible. You should never punch a woman. EVER. I guess after having to kick her out of the bar, then humoring her for a half hour 'till I finished, then driving her home, then negotiating with her to get out of the car, her pushing the door against me just made me snap. She even had a good hour / hour and a half to get sober... but that's not to say that she was at all sober.
So I ask you, LJ peoples. Judge me. I feel like shit for this. I completely lost it and connected my fist to the side of her jaw, as her head was the only thing sticking up above the door. It's not like I knocked her out or anything, I didn't put my full force behind it. But regardless, in that split-second, her jaw became a 3D object that needed to be punched in a right-to-left pattern. My frustration got the best of me, and when she started slamming the door against me I reacted in kind.
I guess I'm looking for absolution here, since I broke my own code of ethics tonight. Please, reply and tell me if I'm an asshole.